Tuesday, August 31, 2004 .

had teacher's day concert today. OMGOSH. the skit was soooo funny i almost died from laughing. to quote. "stephen, stephen. cannot make it ah stephen." haha. like what the hell. overall, the concert was okayy lah. quite sweet lorh. and i love emcee "APU" haha. she was sssooo cute!!! anyywayy. came to school this morning, and was awoken at the staircase by yonghui's enthu shout of my name. haha. she was having shooting today!!! whee- had very cute dances in the hall. me and sarah were playing AGAIN. haha. hmmm... went back to class, consoled andrea. [andrea: WHEE!!! always remember that everybody around you would SUPPORT YOU IN WHATEVER YOU DO!!!] yes. i know im nice. **ego** went back to pri sch with subing.and was taking alot of pics on the train with yuke fonGG and dawn aka. mr pea. haha. i think it suits her. haha. met up with mdm aisah and mrs lum, SHE'S PREGNANT. hah. ate mac with ira and kami. went to ira's hse. haha. and had a great time on her com? hehe. met kenny, watched bourne supremacy with xinxin, kaiqin, kenny, lee and her friend. whats his name again? yeah. wenjun. omgosh. MATT DAMON ROCKS MY WORLDIES!!!! he's sssssooooo cool!? and cooll??!! haha. everybody who reads this SSSSSOOOOO HAS TOOOO WATTCCCHHH BOURNE SUPREMACY!!!!! hah. and lee and wenjun were SLEEPING in the cinema. hah. btw. [wenjun : cool way to sleep in the cinema. shall try that some time.] ate dinner. kenny treated me again. HAH. denn. went home. DAMN tired. haha.

"if you died. i would be real upset. ill most probably die with you." thats what i wanted to say.

,jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 10:24 PM
------ Sunday, August 29, 2004 .

perhaps you might not read this.
i honestly have no idea whether you would or not.
i know, after that incident,
maybe you might never trust me again.
perhaps you might think that im a total jackass,
just wanted you to know that
no matter what happens,
no matter how you feel,
i will always be there for you.
i will never walk away from you,
and desert you in the middle of no where.
i will always be your listening ear
and your crying shoulder.
should you have any problems,
always remember that even if the whole world
turns against you, i would still be that one
person who stands on your side.
i may not be able to make you laugh so much anymore,
but at least, when you cry, i would cry with you.
this is what friends are for.

.jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 2:23 PM
------ Friday, August 27, 2004 .

hah. not angry with andrea anymore. in fact. I HUGGED her today. haha. arent i nice. yes. yes. i know. haha. =) today was like. a totally interesting day. NO MATHS D AND CHINESE AND ENGLISH. haha. AND CME. me and cherlynn had a very INTERESTING game of soccer in the corridor. haha. almost died of laughter. annndddd.. I ALMOST DIED TODAY DURING CHOIR. was listening to denyse play on the piano and then suddenly, guess what happened. THE WIRE I WAS STEPPING ON suddenly 'gave way' and there was a MINI explosion. haha. and if i wasnt wearing my shoes, i would have got electrocuted already. mygosh. so scary can. =) THANK YOU GOD!!!

.jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 8:31 PM
------ Tuesday, August 24, 2004 .

yes. we like. TOTALLY love you huh. bloody fucking bitch. who is so fucking irritating i cant fucking stand you. argh. fuck you lah. jackass. IF YOU WANT RESPECT. YOU WOULD HAVE TO EARN IT YOURSELF. by not respecting us, the juniors and everyone around you, you wouldnt be respected youself. omgosh. till now, i had NO idea that so many people hate you like shit. this shows how much respect we give to you. you shout and scream at us, we dun complain. you treat us WORSE than the juniors, we keep quiet. i dont see the previous batch of seniors doing this lorh. fuck you lah. you think what. MILLITARY choir is it? and besides. havent you heard? they dont scold so much in the army now. so... you love the army alot, dont you. trying to ADOPT their style huh. and to think, ALL THE SEC 3s were sooooo NICE to you. and what. you turn around and pick on us? yeah. whatever. jackass. fucking bitch.

[a*****fanclub] we would love you even more if you could shut up your mouth up. FOR ONCE.

.jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 7:52 PM
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la la la.
we are friends.
woohoo~!!

heh. sarah didnt come to school yesterday. how sad is that. sherilyn tan too. lynette soh too. =( kuku-nated day. mr tan talking `bout some labour law thingy. haha. MADE MY I/C YESTERDAY!!! so happy! finally. and guess what hair style i was having when i took my picture. hah. two plaits. i look like a typical china doll. -.-;; and guess who i saw the moment i stepped out of the building.... YONG HUI!!! haha. and her other platoonmates. ssssssoooooo freaky can. i saw them from opposite le lorh. den i was trying to bend my head down as much as possible. and like. sneak away unnoticed. untilll... she shouted my name SSSSOOO LOUDLY LORH!!!!!! i think like. about 20 people already know my name over there le. -.-;; and dad scolded me for running away and for being RUDE. haha.

dennn.. went to bugis junction. guess who i saw there.... **drumroll** TAY PING HUI!!!!!!!!! lalalalalalalallaala!!! so shuai can. =) hah. and when he smiles... sighh. its like. his beautiful white teeth SHINES THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE FOOD COURT!!!!! and papa was like. " go take a picture of him lah!!! go lah!!! go lah!!!" like. whatever lorh. so paiseh cannn. went walking around with parents. BORING day. dad might still get me a hedgehog though. =)

.jiaqi.

MEDIC KAYLEE is going to save LI JIA WEI.


aerin stoning again at 8:29 AM
------ Saturday, August 21, 2004 .

haha. my birthday was like. 2 days ago. HAD LIKE A TOTALLY GREAT TIME!!!! =) haha. [zhixin, lydia, grace, lynette : thanks for the elmo. and the card. and everything else you guys did for me. haha. i really appreciate it like MAD. =)] and to cherlynn and sarah and everybody else who wished me happy bday, THANK YOU!!!!!!! haha.

okay. time for recap.
went to school LATE on thursday. couldnt go to yh's class. had to run mass run on my bday. so horrid. anyway, sarah gave me a notebook, yinxi drew me a card. so sweet right.. yeahhh.. like totally. had lessons. *makes face* after lessons, went to c1. hannah sang me a bday songg.. awww.. haha. leanne wished me happy bday. hugged crystal and eileen and yh. dennn.. ran all the way back to zx's class. cynthia and sophia ATTEMPTED to kiss me on the cheeks. -bleah- THANK GOD i moved my head away in time. or else i would have been violated. was crapping all the way with grace at g2's door. she was singing this jesus loves me song. and i was singing "SO LONELY" haha. zhixin REFUSED to let me into her class. a couple of people i knew walked past and wished me too. hugged like a hundred people that dayyy. FINALLY, lydia HO HO HO finished her classes and ran down to zhixin's class. got my present and card. haha. =) they were damn sweet. went to mac to eat. sat next to two jap people who were babbling in jap so fast i didnt catch ANYTHING. dennn.. went to swesen. zhixin and lydia and grace treated me to merri-mint. -grinns- bought me a surprise slice of cake. haha. denn.. went to spag. parents had dinner with me. okayy. here comes the funny part. the people found out that it was my bday, and this guy. i think is the head of staff, came out with a slice of cake with a candle on it. and freaked me out by suddenly bellowing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" and the rest of the song. haha. practically jumped out of my chair can. haha. sweet people.

yesterday. haha. boring day. made banner in school. me, cherlynn, chihui and xinling went to art friend to buy paint. hah. had this stupid bet that me and xinling would drop off at city hall and reach there earlier, and chihui and cherlynn would drop off at bugis and be later. OBVIOUSLY me and xinling reached there earlier, just that the other group had tako balls. =( haha. no fair. DIDNT bring my wallet that day, and sighh. haha. borrowed ezlink card from yinxi. haha. went to mac to eat after buying the paints and stuff. haha. was crapping like crazy with everybody in mac. chihui was sssssooooo nice kay!!! she wanted to redeem a burger for moi... hahha. thank you!!! =) and cherlynn kept saying that i was lying coz usually around that time, i would be hungry one. haha. shows how much cherlynn knows me. haha. xinling went home after that. cherlynn was being stupid again on the train. haha. and with chihui's influential laugh, hahaha. i almost died on the train laughing lorh. was STILL crapping on the bus back to school. started painting the banner. audrey and wanqi helped abit. dennn.. started playing with paints and stuff. haha. ohhkkayy. here comes the interesting part. we painted till so late that WE WERE LOCKED IN!!!! haha. and i went to open the gate at the compressor and started waving frantically at my dad's car. guess what happened? eleanor seah saw and was like "GIRL!!! GET DOWN FROM THERE OKAY!? RELAX!!! WE WOULD COME AND GET YOU!!!" and i was like. "yeah. and im HONESTLY going to jump right?" haha. got the attention of the teachers. and dennn.. haha. was FREE!!! mrs lee was telling me to be careful and everything. and mr gary tan was there.. haha. so paiseh. dad sent chihui, cherlynn and wanqi to the mrt station. haha.
today. had oral. SHEESH. gonna fail it. like totally. limmie was laughing at my opinions for the stupid topic cann. argh.
.jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 2:27 PM
------ Tuesday, August 17, 2004 .

haha. im so excited. **hints** haha.
OKAY. i should stop being ego for ONCE.
whee- common test OVER already. like finally lorh.
haha. so happy. and my dad just sent me an email.
asking me not to be kay kian, when its GAY KIANG! hah. im better at spelling than he is.
WOOHOO~!!! went to townnie with sarah today. *sniffles*
me and sarah are SEPERATED. no fair. =( now im sitting next to yingtse.
the world's most talkative person ever. haha. meant it as a good thing. HONESTLY.

bought a book called "KING ARTHUR AND HIS KNIGHTS" at kino.
love it to bitsies~!!! -looks at the book lovingly- haha.

"Whoso pulleth out this sword from the anvil,
That same is rightwise, king-born of England

aerin stoning again at 6:11 PM
------ Saturday, August 14, 2004 .

heh. my new msn nick.

I WROTE IT MYSELF. NO REFERENCE. hah. so happy. finally can admisnistor my jap. =)

｀道子
二人の世界
最後のキース
夢は夢
でも。。。私は。。。心は痛いです。

「愛してる」

.jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 11:25 PM
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COMMON TESTS ARE HERE!!!!! argh!!! -flees-
just had chemistry, lit and chinese yesterday. gonna FAIL my chemistry. confirm already. like. got this page hor.. got 10 questions, i only know like what. 2? pathetic lorh. -.-;; and lit... haha. that was OKAY, but i couldnt finish writing my quote when mr lee said "NO MORE WRITING". sighh. =( chinese was fine too. just that the compre was SSSSOOO terribly boring that i fell asleep while reading it. it took me about 20 to 30 minutes to finish reading that crap. haha. gonna flunk my compre. today was english and social studies. haha. english was normal for me. while doing the paper, i had a really weird feeling. i was like thinking "why do i have this weird feeling that im gonna fail this paper?" haha. social studies was CRAP. couldnt finish writing lorh. daydreamed abit during the paper. HUGE MISTAKE. and people around me where like stapling their answer sheets together. and i look at mine and felt so INFERIOR. coz I HAD NOTHING TO STAPLE!!!!!!! =( haha.

wrote her name like..... ALL OVER MY NOTEBOOK. haha. this is how much she affects me. no fair. how come i dun affect her at all. haha. -whines- -.-;; ohhhkkkaayyy.. that was lame. everytime i see her in school, i will either pretend that i didnt see her and everyone around me would be calling out my name loudly, or, i would RUN AWAY like i have seen a ghost. hah. =( hope she doesnt think that im daoing her. haha. i guess i practically do EVERYTHING for her. life doesnt really have a purpose anymore huh. have to stop this. its turning into an OBSESSION. i mean.. i go to school for her, study for her, eat for her, carry on living for her. no. this has GOT TO STOP. definately. haha. yes. STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -beams- yes. good. its gone. haha.

.jiaqi.

p/s : august is a great month isnt it??? **hints** haha. =)

aerin stoning again at 6:10 PM
------ Wednesday, August 11, 2004 .

walau. common test is 2 DAYS AWAY!!!!!! why?! why?! why?! why?! argh. TT_TT pissed off. and terribly STRESSED!!!!! haha. finished tuition at ah xin's house. haha. today was horrible lorh. guess what. i finised 2 binomial questions in 1 and a half hours. great huh. sighh. yes. i know. i suck. hahaha.

.jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 9:31 PM
------ Monday, August 09, 2004 .

shit. exams are coming. and i havent started studying YET. shucks. SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!!!! anyway. dreamt of her yesterday. long time since i have dreamt of her. and as usual. theme was the same. she had to leave for some ncc camp for 2 weeks. and i was frantically looking for her. and crying like shit. until i saw her. and i rushed over to hug her. and i was crying like crazy. and she said that she had to leave le. so yeah. i woke up. haha. weird.... oh wellx. time to mug. -.-;;

.jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 1:17 PM
------ Saturday, August 07, 2004 .

What is the school turning into?? like what the hell. all the nice nice teachers are going. whats left are the laopok teachers who are hated by every student in school and are imcompetent in teaching. ARGH!!! MS CHIA!!!! BU(4) KE(2) YI(3) ZHOU(3)!!!! walau eh. mr gary tan also leaving. what the hell. =\
my brother is FORCING me to listen to this talking cock cd. argh. its more than stupid. its lame. and corny. and ALOT of hokkien vulgarities HIDDEN in the cd. argh. something about radio stations. and this guy just said this. "Smelly cockroach. Smelly Cockroach. Hairy Armpits. Hairy Armpits. Itchy backside. Itchy backside." LIKE WHAT THE HELL RIGHT!? sheesh. -.-;; stupid cd. argh.
yesterday we had national day celebrations. hah. as usual, it was lame. but the band performance was NICE!!!!!! gwen had her own solo lorh. so cool!!! =) cherlynn also!!! and obviously, they were GREAT. like totally~ haha. and the peacehaven people came... hehe. 3C1 went to fetch them. so nice of them to do so.. awww... so sweet... haha. and i passed the present to *her liao. omg. the way she smiled was ssssssoooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and so adorable!!!!!! hahah. and the way she said "thank you" was ssssssoooooooo man!!!!!! =D sighh. she rocks my world. hahah.
sighh. dad left for china already. saw this really nice pair of nike rollarblades in queensway while window shopping with lydia and zhixin and kaiqin. zhixin bought a new pair of shoes. the ones that xiaoyi has. haha. very nice lahh.. but i still think that it doesnt suit her. oh wellx. still listening to that stupid cd. eeyurh.

.jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 4:16 PM
------ Thursday, August 05, 2004 .

yes.im not your sister. im not your daughter. i dont belong here. im the failure in the family. the loser. the disgrace. when have you ever been proud of me? never. even the clothes i buy, its always inferior compared to what HE has. HE is the best in the family. the outstanding one. the fucking sensible one. the one who treats me worse than how he treats my dog. i hate you. i wished i was not born in this family. where everyone is so fucking fucked up. and to think i wrote that ill die for you. what fucking rubbish. looks like i was fucking wrong. all that was just my own fucking fantasy. and nothing else. i dont belong here.in this house.one day, ill leave.

,jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 9:43 PM
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came back from choir. [andrea *likeyouwouldeverreadthis* : HEYY!!! make that greeting senior thingy official leh!!!] anyway... tired. beat. yeah. yes. talked to my `eyecandy again. haha. im gaining courage to talk to her more often. not so scared anymore. wanna give up on *her. maybe this entire thing wasnt really a good decision. maybe, i should just stop. before i carry on sinning. and making things worse. better stop. before the both of us get real hurt. or maybe, just me. you would never understand whatever im feeling. maybe you do. maybe you just dont wanna show it. you are more significant in my life than anything in the whole wide world. why cant you just understand that? sighh. love you so much.

.jiaqi

You And I Both"

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.



aerin stoning again at 7:32 PM
------ Wednesday, August 04, 2004 .

aye. talked to my `eyecandy today. hahha. [cherlynn : i only got ONE eyecandy kay!!!] hah. like. wow. finally got to speak to her. she's damn funny lah. her smile also damn cute. oh wellx. =) hehe. anyway, heard from her that precious aunty thinks im cute. haha. like who doesnt? *ego swells to the size of the world* hahha. so sweet lorh. but at the corridor, when she was walking towards us, i sped into the classroom, deposited myself on maisie's chair and started staring at the wall and drumming my fingers against the table. haha. yes. i know im stupid. buttt.. aiyahhh. people paiseh WHAT. hehe. got really pissed with somebody today in the morning. then, kinda subsided. then... in tbp. got pissed again. zhixin said i wore my feelings all on my face. NOT TRUE K!!! sighh. then went for tuition... boring day lah today. mrs tang is the suckiest person ever. walau. LIKE ALL TEACHERS WHO SUCK. they judge somebody by what the person had done wrong for the first time. in my case, in a long long time. like whatever. sheesh.

went for tuition. heh. IMPROVED. =) gorgor was not SO STRESSED already. which is very very very very good. can hear from his tone. =) hehehehhe. i bet he's sooooo proud of mee... but on the other hand... common test is coming. TT_TT why? why? why? WHY!!!???? *starts singing the 'wei she muo' song* ~_~ hahah. oh wellx. gotta mug. =)

.jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 8:28 PM
------ Tuesday, August 03, 2004 .

back from tuition. haha. i think gorgor has a really bad time teaching me a maths. my WORST subject. and here i am. trying to be guai and everything. haha. im gonna start mugging for my tests and practising questions. hahaha. so he can be abit more relaxed teaching me. coz everytime i see his experated face ahhh.. hahha. i feel so stupid lorh. hahha. so make his life easier. gonna WORK HARDER!!!! hahha. =) i mean. he got his own work to do. somemore he's in university lorh. if i practise daily. den like. got question that time den ask him. it would be so much more efficient and easier for him and me what. hahah. and maybe he might be able to do his own work when im doing my own work. righhttt??? yeah. right. hahha. ill work harder!!! =)

stella came today. it was OKAY lah. not too bad lah. she's okayy lorh. hahaha. =| and zhixin bought her cd lorh. like last minute. hahha. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!? -.-;; haha. so kuku. oh wellx. her brother also say waste money. haha. nevermind lah. at least the songs are OKAY. and this another band. the music is great. the singer is great. BESIDES THE LYRICS. -.-;; the lyrics are dumb can??!! no depth at all. hahha. better than usher's confessions. at least the band's one was EDUCATIONAL. pul-lease. when i listen to that, i lose faith in lyrics writers.

miss *her like crazzyyyy... sheesh. i have a feeling she is dao-ing me.... haha. lil' more time till my bday. see how fate takes it then. =) gonna pray for joanne at novena. worried for her. sighh. [joanne : take care yah? godblessya~!! =)]

.jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 7:20 PM
------ Monday, August 02, 2004 .

heh. went to her class for geog todayyy.. hahha. at the millenium classroom. hahha. josef tan was like. "why is that girl here hah? jiaqi." hahah. wats his bloody problem. oh wellx. in the end i stayed... heheh. =) and obviously going for another lesson next monday?? she looks DAMN cute with glasses. heheh. =) like how daniel radcliffe looks so adorable when he wears his harry potter specs. hahha. im in love with nerds. hahha. hmmm... was raining this morning.. so didnt have mass run. sarah was humongously happy. haha [sarah: heyy~ happy for you lahh.] hahha. =) gonna be a guai kia. REALLY OKAY!!!!! i will be a guai kia and finish all my PENDING homework. hahha. if you know what i mean lahhh. hehe. love my silver pen. it ROCKS.

[cherlynn : dont care about what those bitches say and that backstabber say. what they say dont matter AT ALL. everyone will stand by you one~!!! so dont worry~!!! =) i support you~!!!]

.jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 7:27 PM
------ Sunday, August 01, 2004 .

sighh. procrastinated AGAIN. supposed to start mugging on friday night... obviously nothing has been done since then. haha. went to ah ben gorgor's hse today. to eat buffet. his baby, EDGAR, was celebrating his full month. oh wellx.the food was ohhkkayy... besides the jelly. it was great. haha. aunty lin passed me my bday present 18 days earlier. haha. oh wellx. it was nice of her though. to buy me clothes that i picked myself a month ago. anyway.. saw jiayi, sharon and GORGEOUS jiahong. haha. gorgeous guyy.. went home to bathe. went out again. with jiayi and sharon to town to get *her present. hehe. and i saw the PERFECT gift for her. heh. =) guess WHAT!? a tatty bear wearing "I LOVE SINGAPORE" shirt. haha. its perfect isnt it. haha. actually. there's another one. wearing a tshirt with a singapore flag on it. but jiayi said that it looked horrible. haha. it costs like. a bomb. $19.90. oh wellx. guess i have to like. starve for the rest of the month. haha. -lame- its sitting on my table now.. haha. wanna imagine her face when she gets it. haha. walked around town for like. dunno how many hours. got this shirt from 37d. argh. was so pissed with the assistant in the shop that i bought it without trying. and guess what.the fucking collar is so damn fucking high. hahha. its like. tight around my neck. ARGH. waste my money. luckily i got it from the budgeted corner. haha. so it was like. $9.90. thank god. *claps hand together and bows* took neos with my two kuku-nated cousins. hahah. it was HORRIBLE. in most of the pictures. i bent down. anddd.. my shirt was BIG. get what i mean?? hehe. *shift eyes around* haha. it started raining.. sighh. hope it carries on till tomorrow. then NO MASS RUN. hehe. =) came backk... jiayi and sharon ate dinner at my hse. the food was like. cold. nevermind. watched brother bear. SO TOUCHING LORH. i cried the first time i watched it. it was really. a nice show. i love kenai when he's a bear. i think he looks so much better as one. haha. and denai *ithinkthatshowtheyspellit* is so shuai!!! hahaha. =) oh wellx. gonna get monday blues tomorrow morning. AGAIN.

.jiaqi

aerin stoning again at 9:23 PM
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