Sunday, October 31, 2004
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did you fucking people ever thought that the SOLE reason why i want to leave this pathetic excuse of a home, is because of you? you stripped me of my intergrity, my pride and most of all, my dignity. i'm not allow to even utter a single mumur about my dislike. in this living hell, i am NOTHING at all. just like a slave in a manor, i am not allowed to speak my mind. i want my freedom, to stay in a place where i am alone, and no one else is there to fucking irritate the shit out of me. a place where i can finally call it home. a place where i belong. you fucking jackasses just dont fucking see it, do you. yet you make a fucking big fuss out of everything and claim how wild i am. i just want my freedom.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 2:00 PM
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Saturday, October 30, 2004
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sly rocks. to the CORE.
he looks good. and most importantly.
HE SOUNDS GOOD.
too bad chrislee is out. =/
but ohwellx. singapore has voted.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 11:28 PM
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sighh.cant go to korea with zhixin.
=( haha. ohwellx. i meann.. yeah.im disappointed.
but her dad needs ta work. so cant help it.
work is more important.
FATED. haha. anywayy.
im like. damn tired.
from towning the WHOLE day today. -_________-
kenny's having his chinese o levels on monday.
GOOD LUCK DUDE!!!!!
haha. okayy. wats with the 'dude'?
anywayy. GOOD LUCK. i bet he would do well. AS USUAL.
know he wouldnt let anyone down. =))
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 11:24 PM
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Sunday, October 24, 2004
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HAH. finally.
my dad's back from thailand.
SAFE. =)) and he bought adidas shirts back for me!!!
just that......
they are TIGHT-FITTING.
just abt as tight as the clothes that gam wears.
yeahh. get the point. its THAT tight.
ohwellx. ill just wear the polo. but.......
that one's tight too. just not THAT tight.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
poor people like me just cant afford adidas. haha.
right. =))
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 7:58 PM
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Friday, October 22, 2004
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you seem so far away.
in my dreams, no matter how fast i run
you'll always move further and further away from me.
in reality, no matter how hard i try
you'll always be my dream.
and i'll always be nothing to you.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 11:16 PM
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AEROSMITH - I Don't Want To Miss A Thing
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss a thing
haha.
meaningful lyrics.
ONCE AGAIN, sylvester has moved me to tears with his great vocals.
=)) my ultimate rocker and my one and only inspiration.
and my delusional mind is still operating.
making me dream of things i shouldnt.
letting my mind wonder through clouds.
i miss you.
YOU'RE UNTOUCHABLE.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 11:10 PM
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
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delusional.
it feels as though ive seen you for a hundred times.
like ive talked to you for so many times.
but i havent.
ive been seeing and talking to you in my dreams.
continuous delusional dreams about you.
about your smile.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 8:33 PM
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im a difficult person to crack.
yes, i do admit to that.
but stop trying to act like you know me for a hundred years already.
my dear mother who has lived in the same hse as me for 15 years and counting
doesnt even know whats going through my head half the time.
you may not understand what the hell im doing.
i seriously cant be bothered anymore.
cant be bothered with people who think they know me best.
i wouldnt try to make you understand anymore.
i wouldnt try to explain my actions to you anymore.
i dont have to.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 8:29 PM
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Sunday, October 17, 2004
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at sarah's hse now.
haha. its like. FREAKIN' FUN!?
really. stayed over yesterday....
we slept at 3? haha.
watched spiderman 2, this coroner hk movie, and the phantom lover by leslie cheung.
nice movies. great plots.
haha. =))
and guess what?! SARAH'S MY PERSONAL TENNIS COACH!?
haha. its great fun lah, tennis.
yeahh. we were doing rallys. *is that how people call it?*
haha. yeahhhhh. love tennis. GONNA BE THE FIRST SINGAPOREAN TO JOIN WIMBERDON!?
okayy. maybe not. but yeahh. my dream. *GRINNS*
.jiaqi.
sarah's hse ROCKS.
aerin stoning again at 1:02 PM
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Friday, October 15, 2004
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OMGOSH.
finally jerry ong is out.
WHEE!!!!
but why is sylvester in the bottom 3!?
WHY!?
arghhh.... freak singaporeans.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 9:05 PM
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Tuesday, October 12, 2004
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watched wimbledon.
HAH. finally. and yes.
i have a new ambition.
i want to be a NATIONAL TENNIS PLAYER.
yes. i want to be, i want to be and i want to be.
so... I WILL BE.
sylvester's MY ultimate ROCKER.
he's my ultimate inspiration.
he's my ultimate dream.
he's my ultimate.
.jiaqi.
p/s: paul bettany is CUTE. so is his german friend.
aerin stoning again at 8:08 PM
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Monday, October 11, 2004
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HAH. lost weight.
i think. haha. went to east coast today
to cycle. mygod. i almost died.
ate breakfast with zx. haha.
lynn joined us (zx, lyd, grace and me) at 11 plus.
ohwellx. we had lunch together, before taking a bus to town
parted with lynn on the bus. met up with sharon.
went to bugis to walk arnd, bought a new tee!!! =)
happy happy me. haha. went home at arnd 5?
yeahh. tiring dayy. woke up so early lorh me.
choir tomorrow. NOPE. IM NOT GONNA PON.
im gonna be friggin' NICE.
.jiaqi.
ending note : SLY'S MY ULTIMATE ROCKER.
lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly. lovesly.
aerin stoning again at 8:21 PM
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Sunday, October 10, 2004
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the weirdest thing just happened to me.
when i was sitting on my bed and clearing up some stuff....
a thought just hit me.
has anyone out there thought of what they would become when they died?
i dunno. i just thought.. how far it seems, to actually die.
but with time flying so fast, i think ill be dying pretty soon,
just like everyone else. but really. i die. and den what.
go thru purgatory? so just ascend to heaven? or descend to hell?
which one? or would i be reincarnated and become a human again?
i dont want to go through purgatory. its gonna be painful. and for afew thousand years.
but if i dont cleanse myself well, how would i ascend to heaven and meet the Lord?
and what if i descend to hell? would God throw me down? I DONT WANNA GO TO HELL!
how does it feel like to die? nobody ever knows. i dont know myself.
okayy. this is a sign from God that i need to go to church and start praying again.
to regain my faith.
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 4:41 PM
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sharon's over here to stay for the night.
isnt that cool.
and i have a GREAT evening.
haha. =)) though im hearing impaired now.
but thats fine.
coz i saw my boyfriend on stage.
haha. RIGHT. i wish he was. haha.
SYLVESTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he looks great lorhh. great to the core.
hahaha. he aint heavy, he's my BOYFRIEND. haha.
anyway. sam from pugjelly was like. damn sweet?
haha. he was like "what can i do for you DEAR?"
and "ANYTHING FOR YOU, well. almost anything."
-grinns- haha. yeahh. sweet guy. COOL GUY.
=)) sylvester ROCKS LORHH!! i waved to him when he was on the bus.
and he WAVED BACK!!!!
along with olinda and many others. haha. =))
i miss david though. alot.
[to somebody out there : heyy. feel honoured that im mentioning you in my blog. i hardly do. haha. okayy. no offence though. MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE LAHH. i meann. seriouslyy. get on with it. no trying to be rude or anything. but really. i found someone already. you should too. ]
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 1:18 AM
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Friday, October 08, 2004
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on an opening note...
SYLVESTER'S MY ULTIMATE ROCKER!!!!
haha. in fact, he should be everyone's rocker.
he ROCKS THE IDOL WORLD. haha.
yeahh.
missing david like CRAZY noww.
whats wrong. he can sing.
he TRUELY has a great voice,
and he did TRUELY well. shucks lahh.
`anti-jerryongg.
yeahh. IM SORRY JERRY.
I HAVE TO SAY THIS. YOU SUCK.
why ahh. talk about TALENTS. you havent got a real big one.
like.... YOU SOUND CONSTIPATED.
im not trying to go against you.... but really.
your talent's just about this big. *raises index finger slightly above thumb*
yeahh. that much ONLY. and i cried like CRAZY when i heard the results.
terribly. i TRUELY shedded my precious tears for DAVID.
yeahh. he's my man. haha. he really is cool lorhh. very cool.
ultimately cool. sighh. i bet he was so crushed by the results.
i bet he was. really crushed. yeahh.
[ira : heyy. cheer up yahh? life's gonna be real fine. i know its gonna be. haha. and yeahh. if you ever need somebody to miss david with you, im just a phone call away! :)]
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 10:06 PM
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
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sylvester's MY ultimate ROCKER!!!!!!!
haha. yahh. like TOTALLY!!!
i meann. seriously. who rocks better than sylvester?
NO ONE.
and i mean it. NO ONE.
haha. =) he's the KING OF ROCK 'N' ROLL and THE KING, OF ALL ROCKERS.
=) something real sad to sayy though. in the midst of happiness.
HE HASNT ACCEPTED MY REQUEST FOR FRIENDSTER!!!
i dont believe it. and like. i requested LAST WEEK!!!
and he went on friendster YESTERDAY.
hmmmm.. is it me.
or does he NOT WANNA ACCEPT IT!!??
arghhh. this is really bad for my ego size yahh....
olinda also. but she has like. a FULL account already. i think.
so yeahh. :) its okay sylvester. take your time. *if you're reading this. RIGHT.*
you can accept my request ANYTIME.
haha. and yeahh. CARRY ON ROCKING SINGAPORE IDOL!!!!!
.jiaqi.
aerin stoning again at 11:46 PM
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Saturday, October 02, 2004
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here's 3 paragraphs to dedicate to my 3 fav. singapore idols.
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and yes. i watched spectacular 1. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH JERRY ONG. like hello. jeassea is like. the best and hottest singer in the whole of singapore idol? and he? what. some nerdy looking guy who sings. like. mediocre. and cant even make nerds look NICE.sheesh. like. whats his problem???????? and i guess. the reason why he got in is that his fans were so worried that he couldnt get in that they KEPT calling. so in a way, this shows how much jeassea's fans are confident that she would WIN.
.jiaqi.
jerryongsucks. andeverybodyknowsit. BOO.
aerin stoning again at 6:23 PM
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