i know im gonna faint. right now.
from sheer bliss and happiness.
my penpal called me again!!!
i mean. being a 15 year old girl
its normal for me to squeal over a
young kid whos absolutely cute.
and michael. has the CUTEST VOICE EVER!!!
omgosh. he's so ke ai!!!
and he seems to be always asking about
the weather. =) and his spelling has improved.
alot. sighh. he's so *attempts to reach across the
earth to michigan and squeeze his cheeks* KE AI!!!
and he called just to say hi!!! HOW SWEET!!!
omgoshh. and like. wow. he can pronounce my name!!!
MY CHINESE NAME!!!!!!!!!! OMGOSH!!!
HE DIDNT JUST CALL ME KAYLEE!!!!!!!!
HE CALLED ME JIAQI!!!!!!!!!!!
*faints from overjoy*
.jiaqi.
it seems strange.
how much you can think about a person.
to the extent that
when you finally get to see him.
you feel as though you've already seen him for hours.
yup. thats how i felt when i saw sly and taufik.
esp. sly. it was like.... a dream come true.
ive been dreaming of the day i actually get see him.
and meet him. and get his autograph.
and i finally did.
after so long. i finally did. =)
it was like deja vu.
honestly. bet i saw everything in a dream.
a dream that refused to come true.
TILL TODAY!!! haha.
kenny's going for senior spec course tomorrow.
and i wouldnt be able to call him for the next 3 to 4 days.
sighh. haha. gonna miss talking to him abt that
skinny flying cloth. haha.
[kenny : AYE MATE!!! hope you're gonna survive senior spec course. DONT LET UR SPECIALISTS DOWN!!! on the other hand.... i know you're going to. you always do. haha. TAKE CARE!!!]
watched incredibles. omgosh. its so funny!!!!!
NEW EYECANDY!!! DASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he's so ke ai!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
and so funny!!!!!!!!!!
oh. and jack jack... haha. its a MUST WATCH!!!
.jiaqi.
im gonna see him tomorrow.
the man of my dreams.
my ultimate..........
HAH. 3 guesses who?
.jiaqi.
i seriously am so in love with james bourne!!!
haha. he reminds me of somebody special... awww...
HA. whatever. dreamt of going to thailand yesterday night.
[lynn: seE? i miss you THAT MUCH. haha.]
lynn's gone. haha. to thailand.
i seriously hope she's fine lorhh.
shall pray for her. haha.
anywayy. he's staying over at my house.
the guy who im so in love with.
not james bourne.
not daniel radcliffe.
not taufik batisah.
not sylvester sim.
not tobey maguire.
not sgt. sagara.
not any of the soumas.
he's................................... MY COUSIN!!!!!!
haha. yes. i know its incestious. but who cares?
he's a great guy. who is nice to me.
and saved me from many evils in this world before.
example? my brother, and his didi. HA. =)
he's such a nice boy... when he goes to N.S.
i shall cry buckets for him. I WILL. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
.jiaqi.
REPORTING STATUS.
ive a new eyecandy.
muahahaha.
drumroll please? *drumroll*
JAMES BOURNE FROM BUSTED!!!!!!
he's sooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!
i mean. he's practically in the same league as
the extremely cute war-otaku SOUSUKE!!!!
and the amazingly innocent DANIEL RADCLIFFE!!!!
and he's as shuai as the ever-wonderful TOM FELTON!!!
*gushes on* .............................
JAMES BOURNE!!! YOU ROCK!!!!!!
.jiaqi.
SGT.SAGARA SOUSUKE.
i still owe grace[yew] her vcd.
i seriously need to return her.
haha. anywayy.
its raining. AGAIN.
usually, ill welcome rain as though its sacred,
HOWEVER. this time. its raining. when there's SUN.
so its sunny and rainy. eeyurh.
life is boring.... with a capital B.
just came back from zx's chalet ytd.
the chalet was okay. the food was great though!!!
zx's mom was like. honestly nice!!!
=) yeahh. a great lady.
lynn's going to thailand tomorrow.
gonna miss her!!!
and to quote kenny "there's alot of shannons in thailand."
she so has to be careful!!! HA.
.jiaqi.
"lets go to their wedding together!"
`sgt.rei.
look at the poor boy getting detained.
look at the poor soldier away from his family.
whats with war?
only politicians sitting on the comfy sofa
back at home watching the news,
making decisions without thinking hard enough.
but on the other hand.
why should they have to worry?
in a war. only soldiers get hurt.
only families of the innocent get hurt.
people who have no say in such circumstances.
WAR IS STUPID.
we must stop this whole war thingy.
its getting dumb. and dumber by the second.
more people are dying.
soldiers who fight, though they fear the worst.
they fight to protect their country, their families.
politicians fight. to protect their wealth.
`sgt.rei.
i guess this is just about the hundredth time im telling people this.
GIVE THE POOR BOY (SLY) A BREAK!!
seriously. its not his bloody fault that all the ah lians and ah bengs
like him what. and its also not his bloody fault that
his fan base is filled with mainly girls.
and its also not his bloody fault that he has a huge fanbase.
i mean. its not as if he uses black magic to get so much fans what.
its the fans who willingly vote for him. honestly.
he sings better than jerry ong and some other contestants.
so...... yeah. just because he 'supposedly' kicked out
some better singer doesnt mean he deserves such treatment.
he didnt kick oli out. oli went out coz she didnt have
enough votes. GET IT!? NOT ENOUGH VOTES.
and besides, if people out there cant stand him,
there is really no need to associate him with
people who cant sing. like..... some taiwan group.
i think its absolutely ridiculous. -_____________________-
i dont think he should be singapore idol. but
i dont think that he should have such treatment.
its stupid. and quit insulting the fans too.
you dont know them. so yeahh.
im supporting taufik, if anyone's wondering.
but i dont think its fair to sly. so.........
QUIT PICKING ON HIM AND HIS FANS.
.jiaqi.
just read this really nice story. the poor guy. anywayy.... here's the story!!!
bet there would bound to be someone who would cry buckets for this. HA. :)
p/s: its a songfic. so yeahh.. the lyrics for 'My Immortal' is part of a story.
MY IMMORTAL
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
..."...Sometimes I sit by the window, you know, your favorite one--the one that overlooks the ocean, and I just talk to you. I know you can't hear me, but I guess sometimes, I imagine you can. I imagine the way you'd smile at me or run your fingers through my hair. But I'm tired. I'm so tired now. I feel like a ghost that haunts this house day after day. Deep down, I was always afraid that I'd grow old and live alone with no one to love and worse, no one to love me. And it's funny, I thought I'd outgrown that fear and yet--here I am, in the very place I've always been afraid to be in..."...
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
..."...I want you to leave. I want your memories to leave. I want everything that reminds me of you to leave me alone. And yet, I've been holding on to all these things as if my life has depended on it. Because I don't want to lose anything else. My memories are all I have of you now and each day, little by little, they slip through my fingers. I guess it's possible that one day, I won't be able to imagine your smile or remember the way your laughter echoed through these halls. I wish that day was yesterday and yet I pray it isn't tomorrow..."...
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
..."...It still hurts. I can close my eyes and everything is still so clear it feels like everything just happened, like everything just fell apart. I wasn't prepared for this pain. I'm not sure anyone is ever really prepared for it. I'd cry for you now but I've got no tears left to shed. I am now but a hollow form, walking through life and waiting...waiting for the peace that never comes and living with the pain that never ceases..."...
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
..."...We'd been through so much. I can still remember all those nights when you'd wake up screaming from your nightmares. We all had nightmares during those days but yours seemed to be so vivid and you always saw the faces from your past--faces that were no longer with us--faces you've now joined. And sometimes I'm angry with you for leaving me here. After everything I did for you...after I'd changed so much for you...after everything...you still left me. I don't give a damn if you didn't have a choice! I don't care...all I wanted was you. And now I have nothing and you still have everything I ever was..."...
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
..."...It's amazing how much of my life hinged on you being a part of it. Even the simple things in life are different now without you here to share them with. You were so full of life and you brought me to life because of it. But now, I'm left here...without your encouragement, without your advice...and without you..."...
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
..."...When I sleep, I dream of you much too often and not nearly enough. Some nights when I can't sleep, I sit alone in the dark and sometimes, I can hear you call my name. I walk these halls, looking for you, and you always escape me. I can hear your laughter echoing around the next corner and I smile, but I only find the shadows and the darkness. You're never there. I know my sanity is slipping by and that's okay. I'm not sure I was ever totally sane. I mean, is anyone?..."...
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
..."...I have good days and bad days. It just that the bad days are really bad. When the darkness creeps in and turns my heart to stone, I wish I'd never met you, I wish I'd never fallen in love you, I wish I'd never changed. Because then I would be the heartless bastard you always thought I was. I wouldn't care about anything. I wouldn't even notice you were gone and best of all, I wouldn't feel this pain..."...
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
..."...Sometimes I don't even really believe that you're gone. I walk into the house and I expect to see you with your nose pressed in a book or out in the yard planting those damn flowers you loved so much. Or I imagine you're in our bedroom and you smile at me in that way you always did and I know exactly what you want. You're still here somewhere because I can still smell you and sometimes when the pain is so intense, I can feel you with your arms around me and it's only in those moments when I truly weep. I wish, just once, that I could come home and actually see you again. But this house is empty. Even though I live here still; this house is empty. Maybe I was destined to be alone. Maybe I was never supposed to experience love. Maybe I've been alone my entire life and those years with you were just a dream--a dream I'd give anything to have again..."...
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
..."...I miss you. Have I told you that today? No? Well, I do...very much so..."...
if you havent guessed, the poor guy's lover died, leaving him all alone. SAD ISNT IT.
.jiaqi.
This post is dedicated to Marine Lance Cpl. Shane Kielion
who was killed in action in Iraq, not knowing that his child
was born just afew hours before. He had died a noble death,
protecting his country and the ones he loved.
May God be with him, and may he rest in peace forever.
Amen.
im better off alone anyway...
i wish i could see you again.
just once more. i hope you are fine.
wherever you are.
WE MUST TAKE MEASURES TO PREVENT SAID CONDITION FROM GETTING WORSE! WE MUST FIGHT!
REPORTING STATUS.
im so in love with all the soldiers in the world!!!
haha. i was just telling my mother that
it's a soldier's duty to be able to protect
their own family and as such. to protect the
world from terrorism. we must take measures
quickly to defend our country and the world
from the unsightly and dangerous behaviours
of the despicable terrorists. haha. thats why
i waited for her even though i was carrying
such heavy load. HAHAHAHA. im starting
to talk like a military person. thats a good sight isnt it.
yes i know. HA.HA.HA.HA. watashi wa otaku desu!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! *otaku = military fanatic*
im going to protect every innocent child out there!!!
im going to SAVE THE WORLD!!!!
...... i think i should stop watching full metal panic.
.jiaqi.
1 more day to my trip with zhixin and lydia!!!
URUZU 3, ID-BANGO: 3852
i created this template MYSELF.
MYSELF. HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.
very soon... im gonna turn my room into
an anime shop. MUAHAHAHA.
right. haha.everybody see that
humongously SHUAI soldier
up there? yes. that is the infamous
mithril soldier, SGT. SAGARA SOUSUKE.
pilot of the ARX-7, ARBALEST.
the infamous bringer of justice and scrouge of terrorists.
the soldier, who would give death a run for his money.
HAHAHAHA.
isnt he gorgeous?
.jiaqi.
"SGT. REI MICHIKO REPORTING FOR DUTY, SIR!"
ID-BANGO: 3852.
URUZU 3.
haha. if you're wondering who sgt. rei is.
its me. haha. i created it myself.
so is the id-bango. haha. yes yes.
i know im smart. HAHAHA.
it gives me a sense of.... happiness?
to know that im 'piloting' a mecha in mithril.
**in my dreams** haha.
speaking about dreams, i dreamt of TAUFIK YESTERDAY NIGHT!!!!
haha. gorgeous looking singapore idol.
I STILL LIKE SLY THOUGH!!!!!!!!
cried when daphne left. its so sad lorhh.
seeing them leave ONE BY ONE.
it used to be like... alot alot alot of people.
haha. i wish there were a million jerry ongs.
then no one would have to leave and every week,
jerry can just leave. haha. even though... i must say.
he isnt the one at fault for the departure of jeassea and beverly.
ANYWAYY. im gonna miss singapore idol next week!!!!
maybe sly might leave. =(( -sobbs-
haha.
"URUZU 3, IKIMASU!"
"SGT. SAGARA SOUSUKE; ID-NUMBER:3182"
HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.
4 more days to trip with lyd and ZHIXIN!!!!!!
WHEE!!! =))
and im earning money. so im not broke anymore.
im so happy!!!
.jiaqi.
been watching this anime called full metal panic.
its GREAT. haha. and damn funny.
sousuke is just abt the shuai-est soldier i have ever seen!!!!
really. he's absolutely wonderful. and funny.
and damn gong. i love the way he climbs into the arbalest
and starts fighting.. the guns go like. "BANG BANG BANG!"
every one of his enemies are DEAD.
and he's a good medic too. =))
HAHAHA. my dream soldier.
on the other hand..... yes. i have a new ambition.
TO BE AN ARM SLAVE PILOT!!!!!!! haha. no.
TO BE PART OF MITHRIL!!!!!!!!!!
TO PILOT AN ARX-7 ARBALEST!!!!!!!!!!
TO PILOT A M9!!!!!!!!!!
haha. TO SEE SGT. SAGARA SOUSUKE IN ACTION!!!!!!
TO FIGHT WITH SGT. SAGARA SOUSUKE!!!!!!!!!
TO BECOME SGT. SAGARA SOUSUKE'S WIFE!!!!!!!!!!! HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.
right. DREAM ON. just like all the other ambitions i had. DREAM ON.
HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.
anywayy. i bet everyone saw singapore idol.
yes. i know. SYLVESTER MOVED ME TO TEARS FOR HIS SECOND SONG!!!!!!
and did anyone hear gurmit singh speak in cantonese?
its WAY COOL. "ngor ge lou po hai gong dong yan." HAHA. SO COOL.
and ken lim's chinese is like. so weird lorhhh... -.-;;
3 CHEERS TO THE NEW SOLDIER IN MY LIFE!!!!
SGT. SAGARA SOUSUKE; ID NUMBER : 3182 *i think.*
3 CHEERS TO THE IDOL IN MY LIFE!!!!!!
SYLVESTER SIM!!!!! number to call: 1900 112 1903!!!
"a soldier is a man who puts aside his fears and carries on battle."
i want to be that man. that man who fights for justice.
.jiaqi.
[sarah: COME BACK QUICKLY FROM HONGKONG!!!!]
'The wise man in the storm prays to God... not for safety from danger, but for deliverance from fear.'
im getting fat!!!!
really lorhh. at the rate im going........
ill turn into lydia sum in NO TIME.
haha. yes. CUT DOWN ON FOOD.
-.- actually. i think i havent been excercising
for a very very long time.
haha. OHWELLX.
WHEE!! going overseas with lyd and zhixin!
so FUNNNNNNn...
.jiaqi.
my dad brought home a totoise. -.-
i have ran out of paper to paint.
there's no more place for me to vent my fustrations.
there's no more paper left.
i need paper. lots and lots of paper.
.jiaqi.
'i should never allow pain to bound me to nothing.'
one day, i will succeed in overcoming my fear.
why do i fear pain? pain is ineivitable. so why should i fear it? i should learn to accept it. accept pain along with life. if i can learn to accept pain, i can accept death. i wouldnt fear to die. without the hindrance of death, i can risk my life to save others without worry. i must be like those at war. those who sacriface their lives couragously for their country. those who die gruesomely in the hands of the enemy and not fear them. i must not fear pain. i must not fear death. i must not be those cowards who blantly refuse to risk their lives for others, those self-centred cowards who claim to have done many good deeds but refuse to help a dying man for fear of dying himself, and uses the excuse of having a family to cover up his cowardice. i must prove myself worthy of respect, must prove my diligence to those who had falsely accused me. i must prove my courage to those who declared me a cowardly killer. i should never allow pain to bound me to nothing.
.jiaqi.
you seem so far away.
.jiaqi.