Monday, January 31, 2005 .

as i stand in a corner and look from afar... i think she's beautiful.
HEH. nice lyrics, its from a jap song. translated into english.
haha. and it applies to daily life.
i think secretly admiring somebody makes the 'admiree' more beautiful than ever before.

almost died today in p.e. as in literally. I THINK PEOPLE IN 4G3 ARE EXTREMELY NICE!!!
many thanks to the following people. i owe you guys one!!!

ROSEMARY, CHIHUI, SHERILYN, AUDREY, YIYUAN, YUXIU, HUI YI, SHAMINAH, SAKINA, YUKEFONG for helping me out when i felt like crap. haha. bet i freaked you guys out. thousand apologies.

and to the following people for asking and caring. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

WEILING, JIESI, CHERLYNN, TRACY, ALICIA, LIYUAN, SOEFIE, GWEN AND MS AZLIN

I LOVE 4G3!!!
and i learnt a valuable lesson today. ALWAYS TAKE YOUR MEDICATION. haha.

`jiaqi.


aerin stoning again at 8:14 PM
------ Thursday, January 27, 2005 .

OMGOSH!!! i just saw all the choir sec 1s. haha. they are cool lahh. and cute. and HYPER. well. at least for one of them. ONE of them is seriously annoying. arghhh... cannot stand her lah. SHE'S TRYING TO BE FUNNY IS IT!? WAH PIANG!!! haha. oh well. im not dead from fatigue yet. so its really good. and besides, im like. really really really really really really really stressed out at school. *starts laughing like a manic* AH HA HA HA HA HA HA HA. lydia's like. HUGELY annoyed by my new laughter. so is alot of people. haha.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 7:32 PM
------ Sunday, January 23, 2005 .

This is no laughing matter at all. I seriously am beginning to think im a total idiot.at the rate im bloody going, im SSSSSSOOOOO gonna flunk my Os. the fact that i cant even bloody do my homework proves ALOT. that im not working hard enough! anime will just have to wait while i 'catch up' with my work. or should i just say..... STUDY?! i mean. i cant rmb sec 3 work, and now, sec 4 work is piling up. i swear to God that im so bloody stressed out that white hair has been sprouting at the speed of light. and there's syf. I SO NEED TO MAKE IT TO THE SYF CHOIR!? or there goes all my blasted cca points. and i will still have an annoying F9 for cca. which is highly embarassing. scrawled on my textbooks in invisible ink are the letters : C.M.I which stands for CANNOT MAKE IT im just going to die by the end of next week. i just know it.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 5:06 PM
------ Friday, January 14, 2005 .

get the fuck out of my fucking crap life, you annoying vile fucking bastard. i fucking hate you and your fucking annoying moodswings. if you think that your fucking torments and mini punishments can fucking hurt me as before, you are so fucking wrong. coz they dont. they just make my other side happier. seeing all those lines tainting my fucking skin. sure. go ahead. im not bloody afraid anymore. you just really suck, you self copulating jackass. its so fucking annoying to see you rant your head off with trivial matters that do not need my intelligence to aid in. you bastard. you seriously think ive got so much fucking time on hand now? i havent watch a SINGLE tv programme since fucking school started. and yeahhh. quit being in denial. quit having delusions about me making crap mistakes and screwing up, coz im not. im different now. unlike last year. when i was so fucking weak and cowardly. yes. im different from last time. you can just go screw up your own fucking life. maybe that would make you happier, and you can have delusions about your screwed life being mine. damn you and your fucking antics.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 11:47 PM
------ Sunday, January 09, 2005 .

WHEE!!! recap time. on friday, went for campfire night. wow. its actually the LAST time i can go for the sec 1 orientation campfire and see my schoolmates perform. haha. the malay society performance was cool. haha. and then it started to rain. like WHAT THE HELL. in sec 1, it rained too. and now. when im sec 4, it bloody rains again. ohwell. went up to the hall. learnt that God always has his plans. it turned out that it was better than if it didnt rain. waiting PATIENTLY for ncc performance. and IT WAS COOL BEYOND COOL. IT WAS AWESOME BEYOND AWESOME!!! haha. the sec 2s were CUTE. the sec3s were like... SO COOL!? so were the sec 4s. i mean.. i cheered for them so hard i think my throat was sore after 5 mins of yelling and screaming for them. hahaha. THEY WERE SO SHUAI!!!!!!!!!! =) haha. ohwell. also understood something. i could be standing in the mist of a crowd screaming and cheering for their schoolmates, yet, i still felt lonely. things happened the year before that i cant forget. fortunately, her performance made me feel so much better, and the guides' performance too. dad and mum werent at home, went to kl for A day. haha. so when i reached home, aniki was already at home... [sarah: hey. im sorry i couldnt say anything to make you feel better. hope you are fine now. and thanks for being concern.] AND...

MANY THANKS TO THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE : SHERILYN, SOPHIA, YUKE FONG, GWEN, SARAH, ZHIXIN, LYDIA, YUXIU, SHERYL.

on saturday, woke up at around twelve noon... haha. met zhixin at 2.30 at lyd's dental clinic busstop. haha. was cool lahh. going out with her after an entire 5days of WORK. bought stuff that we NEEDED and then, went walking around for a while. before she had to leave for her cousin's house. so i was stuck alone and no where else to go. BOO. haha. and then it started to rain when i got to clarke quey. got real wet then. before i went to take a train back to dhoby gaut. visted ANIME HOUSE. and yeahhh. ITS SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! its like an anime dvd library. really. i was overwhelmed by the number of dvds they have there. bought inuyasha movie 3 and the final episodes. WAH PIANG. it was disappointing. the subs for the final episodes were TERRIBLE. as good as the one i bought from malaysia. nevermind then. anywayy... IVE COMPLETED THE INUYASHA EPISODES ALREADY!!!!!!! i just need 3 more movies, and the soundtrack and i would have finished the set. HAH. so proud of myself. and if i get the t-shirts, i would be PROUD to announce that........ IM A TRUE INUYASHA FAN! haha. watched the dvd zhixin bought for me from hk. haha. ITS FREAKY!!! and funny at the same time. haha. I LOVE STEVEN CHEUNG. omgosh. he's SO CUTE!!

woke up this morning at 9 plus. have to go visit auntie fun's grave? i think its ashes. anyway. yeahh.. was kinda sad. i heard that theresa wrote a letter to her and put it at her area. but its gone. i empathise with her and theo. bet its hell sad for them. felt my tears surfacing when we said our goodbyes. its been a year. wow. i know dad hasnt really gotten over it yet, and so hasnt anybody there. losing somebody close to you is hard to accept. but ohwell. had breakfast after that. the beef noodles were GREAT. haha.

[auntie fun: where ever you are now, i know you are fine since you have reconciled with the Lord. just want you to know that we all miss you terribly, and your death has really caused an impact in our lives. i never knew i could be so emotional till your funeral. i bet you know that theo and theresa miss you terribly too. *lifts an imaginery goblet* here's to you.]

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 5:14 PM
------ Tuesday, January 04, 2005 .

omgosh. alicia just lent me her inuyasha vcds. haha. IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!! =) thank you alicia!!! hahaha. inuyasha.... YES. i have finally decided to be a nun. UNTIL... inuyasha/kyou/sagara comes and SAVE me. haha. went to meet ira today. SAW KAIQIN IN THE CLEMENTI MAC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha. he ran away.. am i THAT scary? sheesh. haha. anyway. then. saw alicia and kalai and grace there too. went to ira's hse after that. omgoshh. YUNTONG AND ZHENGDA ARE SOOOO CUTE!!!! hahha. ohwellx. just found out that jingwen sleeps at 9.30 every night. cant believe that guy.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 10:59 PM
------ Sunday, January 02, 2005 .

okay. so i know im abit late. but here are my new year resolutions!!!

1) BE NICER TO MY DOG. i will be you know. it just takes time to change.
2) finish my homework on time.
3) TRY to not doze off in class.
4) ATTEMPT to save money.
5) watch more animes and still find time to study.
6) change my room into an anime room.
7) clear out all chinese cds that i have in my cd rack and give it away.
8) mop my room every weekend.
9) be more... HOLLY.

i think thats about it... hahaha. and of course. go to church more regularly. yes. thats it.
hahhaa. and on an ending note... MATT DAMON'S THE MAN!!!

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:26 PM
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"In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me."
Matthew 25:40.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 1:36 AM
------ Saturday, January 01, 2005 .

In light of all the crap that has been going on in the world, i have decided to blog about something that most people find taboo. GUNS. haha. and warfare. i seriously think that people in this world have gone from cowardly to more cowardly. doesnt anyone out there realise that the idiot who created guns is actually a coward? to use a gun takes less experience and less skill than to wield a sword or to shoot an arrow. so i can honestly conclude that those who use guns are COWARDS. you can like. shoot from dunno how many miles away and still maim or kill the enemy. whereas to wield a sword itself takes great skill. and plus, you cant kill an enemy from long distance. unless you count throwing it. LIKE HOW SESSHOUMARU DID!!! =) anyway. back to topic. and to master the skill of archery takes a long long time. so its more honourable to fight for your country during medieval times than now. and those bastards who use bombs. they are WORSE. to throw a bomb over a city area and killing all those innocent people is really really cowardly. i mean. what has the people of the nation gotta do with a war? its ALWAYS and will FOREVER be the politicians who decide the fate of the country. all in all. GUNS AND WARFARE IS STUPID!!! unless somebody decides to use the medieval way of warfare. which is like. NEVER. so yeahh. warfare IS stupid.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 3:35 AM
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