Saturday, April 30, 2005 .

I am so blasted pissed at my current situation. Im not only locked out of my house, i have got to wait for an hour or so for my parents to get back. If anyone is wondering why i can blog when im locked out, its cause im using my phone to use the net. Yes. I know im wasting money... But. IM SO FREAKIN BORED! The only thing else that i can do is read my biology notes. Which i obviously am too bored to do so. :) Haha. Today has been a fruitful day. I was able to have a breakthrough at church. Thats good. :)

aerin stoning again at 8:59 PM
------ Thursday, April 28, 2005 .

sometimes i SERIOUSLY sit down and wonder. why did my parents marry each other, stood at the altar, and made matrimony vows, stating how they would love each other forever and what not? what is love? is love all about arguing over STUPID things everyday? or is it some kinda adult trend that every adult would follow. because if love is all that, i swear to the Lord and make vows that i would practice celibacy and never marry. like what my cousin used to say. "if you're gonna get divorced in the end, then whats the point of getting married?" i have a feeling people get married just for the sake of having sex and not sinning. which is absolutely insane. if i have to bound myself to this man who i do not love for the rest of my life (i dont believe in divorce) just for that few minutes of friggin' pleasure and having this THING stuck inside me, then i'd rather never get married. whats the point anyway? if i have to quarrel with this man everyday in front of the products of that few minutes of pleasure (i dont believe in contraceptive methods as well), and affect them psycologically and socially, then i'd really rather not get married. parents just do not see that everytime they argue in front of their kids, the poor children get affected. my mother used to ask me a couple of months ago, why im always against whatever she says. you know, its actually her own friggin' fault that im biased against her. since young, dad and mom LOVED to quarrel everyday. in front of me. a young kid whose brain's not even developed yet. and obviously, since im closer to dad, i side with him. so actually. whatever rubbish my mother is going through now, is her own fault. im psychologically raised up to think that my mom is an evil person. and it really doesnt help when your dad keeps showing you disney movies featuring.... THE EVIL STEPMOTHER. i know. stepmothers and mothers are a whole lot different. but since im dumb and stupid, i focus on the similarities. the word "MOTHER". its really sad you know. because 5hours later, when they are calmed down and think about their previous arguement and analyse the situation, they would realise that it was all because of some stupid korean drama and a woman who is too eager to defend herself. which is really rubbish. and whatever i say doesnt seem to make things better. even when i yelled into my dad's ear that my blasted exams are like. the next day, it doesnt work. my parents are getting immune to my threats to flunk my papers. they have mutated like those bacteria out there. PENICILLIN DOESNT WORK ANYMORE. whatever.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 7:49 PM
------ Wednesday, April 27, 2005 .

ARGHHH.
NOTHING. i repeat. NOTHING. about respiration and friggin' disgusting looking alveoli are getting into my brain. the process of info absorption is FAILING ME.... this cannot be.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 7:30 PM
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i finally understand how annoying it can get when people yell profanities in public. hence, i shall stop starting off my sentences with profanities. it can get extremely irritating when you are in the middle of some important information and knowledge absorption process when this bimbo sitting withn a metre radius of you in macs INSIST on adding 'fuck' in every sentence she says. and even when ALL the aunties, uncles and human beings around her were staring at her, she seems to be oblivious to it. HOW SAD. *rolls eyes till my eyeballs are staring back at me on the wall* whateverrr. friggin' bimbo.

anywayy. met yuxiu, zx and YY in the library todayy. haha. OBVIOUSLY i couldnt get any blasted information into my puny and tiny brain. im beginning to think that i was born without a brain. and then.. God decided to pity me by putting a small one into my empty skull. hah. im dumb. even when i ponned school to stay home to study, i defeat the purpose of lying to my teacher by sleeping till 10am. THINK OF ALL THE TIME WASTED!!! 1 MINUTE IS 60 SECONDS!!! IVE WASTED 720 MINUTES TODAY!!! TT_TT im distraught at my idiocy. and the english paper is tomorrow. and here i am.... BLOGGING. -_-.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 6:41 PM
------ Tuesday, April 26, 2005 .

angeline ng confiscated my pingu book!!!!! she must have been seriously pmsing that day to have confiscated such a cute book. seriously. either that, or she really doesnt like plastersine penguins walking across the tv screen. =(

THE CORRS - EVEN IF

For what it's worth I think there's
nobody like you
You've got grace got a heart beating and despite
your fun
As I grew up I was terrified of darkness
Now you're around I've no reason
to be frightened

'Cause even if the sun came tumbling down
You light the ground I walk on
Even if the moon fell out the sky
You light the ground I walk on

Now that you're mine I can't
picture life without you
You're my friend,
you're my lover wanna bite you.

'Cause even if the sun came tumbling down
You light the ground I walk on
Even if the moon fell out the sky
You light the ground I walk on

The world goes on spinning and I can't retrace
My heady footsteps to this place
I'm in heaven right now
and I don't want to come down

'Cause even if the sun came tumbling down
You light the ground I walk on
Even if the moon fell out the sky
You light the ground I walk on

Now we're alone gonna show
how much I need you
Kiss you so won't ever wanna leave me

'Cause even if the sun came tumbling down
You light the ground I walk on
Even if the moon fell out the sky
You light the ground I walk on

'Cause even if the sun came tumbling down
You light the ground I walk on
Even if the moon fell out the sky
You light the ground I walk on

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 11:32 PM
------ Friday, April 22, 2005 .

during miss woon's class, we watched a video on this guy called John Floppe. he was born without arms. and there was a video of some kinda talk he made. and he said this before the end of the video.

"God promises us that he would walk with us through every step of our lives. what more could we ask for?" I THINK THATS SO TOUCHING!!! i mean. sometimes when i daydream, i dream that im injured and lying in some kuku-nated hospital half dead, and when everyone has deserted me. i see Jesus and Mother Mary embracing me, and saying "Hush now, My child." and kissing my forehead. ITS SO TOUCHING!!! everytime i think of that, i feel like crying. awww... shucks. TT_TT

and today. something very COOL and AWESOME happened. I GOT AN A FOR MY 2.4!!! =) all thanks to chihui's statement. "Its your mind over matter." and she and rose were encouraging me everytime i ran pass them. by shouting "GO JIAQI!!! FOR THE TENNIS TEAM!!!" shucks. that truly made my day. haha. and obviously, when i wanted to give up.... I PRAYED TO THE HOLY FATHER!!!! =) and yes. he helped me. as always. see? i proved kenny's theory wrong again. HAH. in times of need, prayer is most essential and important. and thats what we think about when we are about to die. to quote constantine's st.gabriel. "you're doing all these just to get back into His good graces." yupp. And i ate alot today. omgoshhh... its like.. i dunno. ALOT OF FOOD!? seriouslyy. POO. im gonna get fat. im gonna get fat. ANDDDD... i have white hair!!!!!! 0_0 yes. i have white hair. from the stress and pressure me mother gives to me. poor ol' me.

and btw. ive found out some thing very interesting about cherlynn.

Crazy Cherlynn Cheong

MAKES TOTAL SENSE.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 8:05 PM
------ Thursday, April 21, 2005 .

i have an announcement to make.
my mother is the world's most annoying and irritating and irrational creature to have walked this earth. and is still walking this earth. she is illogical, irrational, absurd, insane, and paranoid. of course, im not meaning that im perfect. i am just as imperfect as her and that we all have make mistakes. repeatedly. yet. doesnt she realise that it took ALOT of courage, and i mean ALOT. just to tell her how i feel about this 'HOME'? now. i seemed to have made things worse. i cannot even sit down in the living room, fanning myself and spacing out, without her, telling me about the art of maths. i truly, seriously have no idea what goes through that brain of hers. *notice. i have accepted the fact that my mother has a brain.* she can be sitting in front of the telly, watching some hk drama serial that has NOTHING. i repeat. NOTHING. to do with maths / studying / school for that matter, and all of a sudden, she freaks the whole family out by talking suddenly.
"You cannot just practice your maths. You have to understand the concept. You cannot rush through everything and anyhow do your work. You must keep practicing." oh.*STRAWBERRY* off. i know she loves me, and cares for me. but this is getting ridiculous. she repeats this 5 times in an hour. I cannot even REST. no. i have to KEEP doing maths.

*STRAWBERRY* YOU!!!
and i dont mean it in a bad way. im just so pissed off right now, i feel like taking the chopping knife and hack my mother to death. or maybe. i should just start eating strawberries. whatever. im not making sense now.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:26 PM
------ Tuesday, April 19, 2005 .

ANIKI IS BACK!!! ANIKI IS BACK!!! *chants* hah. im happy that aniki is back from JAPAN. *ALL HAIL JAPAN* but. the goonie buggie bought ONLY a teeshirt for me. and chocolates. and didnt get my tenipuri jacket!!! =( and he didnt find the funny thing that xiaojie wanted. eeyurhhhhhh. and he spent like. two thousand PLUS just to go all the way to japan and quarrel with my cousin. i mean. when they are in singapore, they are on great terms, you would think that they were brothers. but once they get to japan, *ALL HAIL JAPAN* they start to argue and quarrel over STUPID things. like... my cousin's hairstyle. wow. argueing in one of the greatest country in the world *ALL HAIL JAPAN* is really fun. sometimes i just cannot grasp the concept behind the mindsets of boys. no. make that. MEN. like i cant understand why my parents can argue over NEWSPAPERS. early in the morning, instead of getting awoken by my alarm clock, i heard noises like.
"THE MAIN PURPOSE OF BUYING NEWSPAPERS IS FOR OUR DAUGHTER!!! HOW COME YOU ARE READING IT INSTEAD OF HER!!??" "SHE HAS BEEN READING IT!!! I KNOW!! I SAW!!! THE MAIN COVERS OF THE PAPERS ARE ABOUT THE POPE!!! SHE WOULD HAVE READ IT!!! SHE LOVES THE POPE!!!"
"THATS NOT TRUE!!! I DONT WANT HER TO GO TO CHURCH!!" [5 seconds later...]
"WHY DID YOU BUY HER THE INUYASHA GAME!!!??? YOU WANT HER TO FAIL HER O LEVELS!!??" [5 seconds later]
"WHY IS SHE TAKING UP TENNIS!!?? ITS A WASTE OF TIME!!! SHE COULD GET TENNIS ELBOW!!"
and the arguement changes its topic sentence every 5 seconds. i love my parents. they just humour me with their ways every single day. not that i dont love them. i just like to breakdown their arguement and see how much THOUGHT has been put into 'discussing' about their children. which, by the way, talking about parents, i must have been blind, to not see that my mom cares about me so much. that she has driven herself, plus everyone in the family, including the dog, up the wall. so... the constant insanity in the house, is indirectly caused by me. hmmm...

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:04 PM
------ Monday, April 18, 2005 .

before i address certain matters, i must say this.... "CHERLYNN. HOPE YOUR HEAD'S A LIL' BETTER!!!"

anyhoo. on saturday night. i heard a very strange theory from this friend. lets just call him PSYCHO. so. i was chatting with psycho on the phone about the usual stuff. and since i just came back from church, i was hyped up about Christ. so we started talking about religon and stuff. and he said this very STRANGE and WEIRD and UNUSUAL thing. "People only start praying when there is peace. in times of disaster, God is forgotten." that is like. so weird!!! I mean. think about it. in times of peace and harmony, people take for granted that God would answer all our prayers and forget about Him, 'cause they are living in paradise. but when they encounter some stones and start falling down, they remember about higher authorities and start praying everyday. being the "pious" followers they are, they start (for the Catholics) asking for Mother Mary, the saints, and of course, Jesus, to interceed. and when God doesnt answer their prayers, they start cursing Him 'cause they cant solve their problem. so hence. a better argument than the one that psycho put across. *THE GENIUS STRIKES AGAIN!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!!*

but thats not the matter that i want to talk about. A wise OLD man once told me. "A little faith can move MOUNTAINS." people pray and ask for God's help. yet, when he doesnt answer, they blame Him, and start thinking that He doesnt exist. but do these people stop and think whether they are having faith in Him? i mean. its logical. if you believe in God, then he would answer. if you dont believe in Him, and yet still pray......... then arent you just merely talking to air? prayer without faith is nothing. its just mere talking. and btw. are humans dumb enough to NOT see that air doesnt answer 'prayers'? seriously. -_-.

secondly. many protestants tell me that works is not important. I dont agree. Works which are merely hypocritical, is obviously not important and will not lead to salvation. DUH. but if a man claims to be a christian, yet going around robbing old ladies in mittens of their money, then is that man speaking the truth? I THINK, works which portray our beliefs, ARE important. let me put it in another way. Its like. a buddhist approaches you and starts talking about all the teachings of buddha, and claiming to be a pious follower of his teachings, but the next moment, you see him kicking a cat that happened to be blocking his way. thats how ironic it is. another example. the late Holy Father, Pope John Paul II, represents the Catholic community. when people talk about him, the first and apparent thing that goes into their heads is the catholic community. IF, Pope John Paul II ever did anything that is not ethical, it reflects badly on the church. same thing. if any christian (anyone who believes in Christ) starts preeching about his beliefs and does not do things that reflect on what he says, then its all just hypocrisy. when protestants ask why it is so difficult to convert people, maybe they should start asking themselves. what have they done? I believe that sharing the gospel need not be taking out a bible and start flipping to pages or what so ever. it could be showing people our attitudes. for example. i have a friend called.... lets say.. pingu. Pingu's parents are against him going to church. Yet. if pingu shows a SINCERE improvement in his behaviour, his mother, would say. "a man who has died 2000 years ago can inspire my son to become a better person. i want to know more about him." thats one reaction that she could have. the other could be to allow him to attend service / mass, knowing that her son is in good hands. now. i think thats a rather effective way of sharing the gospel, than to shove the bible down people's throats.

and last thing. EARTH DAY IS COMING. SAVE THE WORLD.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:42 PM
------ Thursday, April 14, 2005 .

"Christ walks with me. every step of my life, He walks with me."

a very wise man told me before.
CANCER IS THE CAUSE OF PEOPLE EATING RUBBISH.
i agree to that statement more than anything else he said.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:11 PM
------ Wednesday, April 13, 2005 .

A couple of days back, i met afew people whom i have decided to dedicate an entry to them.

SELFISH ARSEHOLES!!!

i was discussing ways of how to help NOT pollute the enviroment any further, and how the ozone layer was thinning. guess what were their reactions? they looked at me as though i was losing me marbles and walked away.one of them even had the cheek to tell me that the ozone layer depletion happens only in Australia, so it has nothing gotta do with us SUPERIOR SINGAPOREANS. well. THINK AGAIN MORONS!!!
the stupidity of that statement is on par with "HEY.MY THUMB IS INFECTED. BUT THATS OKAY. 'CAUSE ITS JUST MY THUMB." HELLO FELLOW EARTHLINGS!!! AUSTRALIA happens to be in the same EARTH as you. so if the friggin' ozone layer hole is there, threatening people with multiple cancer such as SKIN cancer, dont you think that other parts of OUR BELOVED earth would be 'infected' as well. the blasted hole in the ozone layer isnt just more sunlight to get tanner within minutes. we're talking about skin cancer, FATAL skin cancer. A distant relative of mine just died of skin cancer. When a close one dies of an illness similar to this due to constant exposure to UV rays, dont start blaming God for all those horrible viruses and mutations of bacteria whatsoever. It is caused indirectly by US. everything happens for a reason.
when your house has a huge crack on the ceiling, threatening to bring down the whole roof (mine has one), what does everybody do? just look up and go like. "hey dad. there's a crack on our ceiling." and carry on doing our own work? God isnt going to come down and help fix the crack you know. He has better things to do, like listening to sick people's prayers. The earth having a major hole in its 'skin' is due to our acts. OUR, meaning EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING THAT STAYS ON THIS EARTH, with the mild exception of eskimos and africans (mind you, i said AFRICANS not SOUTH AFRICANS). It is due to our constant usage of CFCs (which, thank God, is banned).
Besides this ozone layer issue, the matter on global warming is getting serious. Ever wondered why the weather's getting hotter and hotter by the year? hey. guess what. its due to human nature's selfish selves that its getting warmer! how sweet. NOT. 'Cause of pollution by numerous factories, our earth will soon turn into a spherical sauna!!! causing more floods, and TSUNAMIs. so when another country gets hit by a tsunami or flood, dont start donating money, food, clothes etc. without thinking, MAYBE, you might be the indirect cause of it. thats just hypocritical, dont you think?

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 8:21 PM
------ Tuesday, April 05, 2005 .

hah. just got MOLESTED by cherlynn. haha. its the piggyback craze!!!

aniki's going to japan. WHAT THE HEAVEN LAHH. no fair. i wanna go as well. =( i want that prince of tennis jacket!!! I WANT IT!!!! boo. the Holy Father died. im terribly affected by it. seriouslyy. he was a remarkable man. i miss him. didnt go for special mass as well, coz dad didnt allow it. eeyurhh..

xiaojie is an insane woman. hahahhaah.
"WE LOVE INUYASHA!!!"

`jiaqi.

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aerin stoning again at 2:56 PM
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