john3:16; the beautiful game.

Sunday, August 28, 2005 .

hmm. my life is turning into no life. sighhs. went out with zhixin on friday. had stomach upset. I MISSED GARY!! crap!! i was seriously looking forward to see my boyfriend!! sighhs. my boyfriend.. -stares dreamily into space- i miss gary! im gonna start a gary fan club. I WILL. zhixin bought a wallet! yay! and its FAT. haha. walked around town for quite some time, before i went to her house. I BOUGHT A NEW BAG FROM A BETTER TOY STORE!! its so freaking cute and nice! whoever has no comments on the bag is RETARDED. hah. went to school on saturday with gwen, sherilyn, cherlynn, rose and chihui. we had lit consultation! yay! I LOVE MS AZLIN!! she's super nice. cant stand penny ang for what she did to chihui. hmmphh. zhixin went to church with me! yay! had much fun crapping and playing in church and zx and jerilyn. though it was very unholy of us... haha. my brother lost his 11B. what an idiot. oh well. had a LONG LONG LONG dinner with jerilyn and zx. and they kept making me laugh by doing what patrick did in spongebob. haha. idiots. sighhs. my days would seem so empty without these momoks. anyway. the stars of the day are.....

gwen: HEYY. (: its quite sad isnt it? that we are gonna leave already. hmm. firstly. THANK YOU FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIP. (: it meant alot to me. thank you for all the times you have looked out for me. haha. i feel like a child when im with you. thats a compliment by the way. thank you for confiding in me, and trusting me enough to listen to my advices. though i apologise that sometimes, my advices suck. really. haha. though i have always find it a pity that we bonded so late, but its okay! you made my geography lessons more interesting with your remarks. haha. stop mocking me okay! haha. and thank you for all the concern and care you have showered upon me! yay! haha. i really really really appreciate it yah? im gonna miss you calling me pingu when we leave for jc. sighhs. and im gonna miss the times when you asked me for my ipod, though you know im not gonna lend it to you! HAHA. (: i love you for all the rubbish that you always say, that really crack me up like mad. haha. I LOVE YOU. (:

sherilyn: you kuku-nated woman! haha. somehow, i always end up dancing with you. haha. once again, sorry for bonding with you so late. i missed all the times that you crack me up with your stupid facial expressions. hahaha. (: you've been a great friend, always encouraging me with your nice smses and words. so thank you for that! (: and thank you for saying that i give good advices and that im wise.. haha. im not wise lahh. just another girl struggling with life just like everybody else. jc's gonna be different without you and gwen bickering everyday next to my ear. haha. and every morning during assembly, gwen will make stupid faces at you too. i find that so stupid! haha. (: thank you for being so caring and loving towards me! and thanks for saying that i look like a penguin. haha. talking to you about serious stuff has been fun, and im gonna miss you like mad, just like how ill miss gwen and everybody else! haha. you guys have became part of my life. and yeahh. I LOVE YOU FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME! (: recess has been fun with you guys around. (:

jeslin: WAII. mad woman! haha. ill always remember you for your doudou. haha. absolutely love pressing on your doudou! haha. its so cute! awww.. haha. though i got to know you much better this year, it was really fun and memorable spending most of my holidays and schooldays with you! haha. everytime we go to subway or long john to eat, you would have some crap to say. haha. and your jokes and facial expressions are so cute and comical! haha. would really miss life without your constant rubbish. haha. (: thank you for all the times that you have cracked me up and leaving me feeling how fortunate i am with all you guys around to make me laugh and cheer me up. thank you for being there when i was really upset with my family, and saying stupid things to cheer me up. thank you for making my 16th birthday such a sweet and unforgettable one with everybody else! (: yay! hopefully, we get into the same jc together with zx and everybody else! (: haha. i love you!! (:

melissa: boo. walking zoo. HAH. (: this past week has been really unforgettable and it has really been SUPER cool and fun! (: haha. though i only got to know you better after the june holidays, its been really super fun with you around! especially the adam khoo course! haha. you really cracked me up alot lah! haha. even though you dont love gary as much as i do, ill still love you! haha. thank you for being there when i really needed somebody to wail and sob on, and thank you for making me laugh when i couldnt stop crying. thank you for looking past all those really embarassing moments and still remaining as my friend. (: yay! i know i must have pissed you off with my constant whines and complains and laughter, but hey. im so lovable that you cant be angry with me. yay! haha. sorry for making your life miserable. ): haha. ill make it up by buying you junk food? haha. in any case, thank you so much for being part of my life. i love you!

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 6:24 PM
------ Friday, August 26, 2005 .

故事的小黄花从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千随记忆一直晃到现在
ㄖㄨㄟㄙㄡㄙㄡㄒ一ㄉㄡㄒ一ㄌㄚㄙㄡㄌㄚㄒ一ㄒ一ㄒ一ㄒ一ㄌㄚㄒ一ㄌㄚㄙㄡ
吹着前奏望着天空我想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天花落的那一天
教室的那一间我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天我好想再淋一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开

刮风这天我试过握着你手
但偏偏雨渐渐大到我看你不见
还要多久我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天也许我会比较好一点
从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏雨渐渐把距离吹得好远
好不容易又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像说了拜拜

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 4:45 PM
------ Wednesday, August 24, 2005 .

at cherlynn's house AGAIN. haha. cos mock exams galore tomorrow. so im over there to study. heh. sneaked a couple of minutes to blog. im determined to carry on my 2 paragraphs of dedicating to people i love!! (: yipee!

kenny: heyy. its been really fun for the past half of my life knowing you. haha. even though for some really weird reasons that you have turned paranoid and havent been there for me, HEH. it doesnt matter. you have heard me cry over the phone for thousands of times, something that most people wouldnt hear. and you have heard me delirious with happiness, hyper, heartbroken, disappointed, angry, frustrated. haha. you should be honoured okay! anyway. i really wanted to thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being my really good friend for this long. i dont even talk to ira THAT much. so yeahh. thank you for cracking me up when im feeling most down, and thank you for knowing when to shut up and when to just talk rubbish. thank you for all the vulgarities that you have taught me! (it made me grow up a little.:)) i admire you for your intelligence, your constant determination to be the best. every test and exam that i recalled taking with you always ended up with you being the first. every time there was an award being given out, you were always one of those award winners. for that, i applaude you. (: however, not trying to stick a label on you, you can be quite a pain in the neck sometimes. but, most of the time, you're just plain comical and hilarious. ill miss the times when we talked on the phone for 3hrs, till my ears went SUPER red. well. take care! and if it seems appropiate, i love you for all the things that you have done for me before. (: THANK YOU!

cherlynn: seeing that im at your house now, i just really hope you dont burst into the room suddenly and read this before its published. haha. you know. im really gonna miss you when we graduate. hmm. i know ive said this many times, maybe too many times for it to make an impact. but still. im gonna say this. if it means anything to you, i apologise for all the times ive taken you for granted, and running off with other people. i thank you for all the times you have been there for me, letting me wail and sob like a child on your shoulder. thank you for all the times you have 'tahan'ed my constant and incessive whinings. haha. (: and all the times you have inspired me. thank you. (: im sorry that we bonded so late. and im sorry for letting a mere guy get in between our friendship. im so so sorry. and yeahh. till today, i regret my actions. you should feel honoured okay! i dont regret. well. not alot. one day, join superstar. and you'll make it. cos i believe you would. and you should believe in yourself too. THANK YOU!!! (: love you so so much! YIPEE!!

well. there's the end of my two paragraphs. yay. (:
in the meantime, DONT FORGET ABOUT THOSE PEOPLE STARVING IN AFRICA.
AND DONT FORGET TO BOYCOT SHARKS FIN!

`jiaqi.

~~i'll wait till the heavens fall for you.~~

aerin stoning again at 10:41 PM
------ Tuesday, August 23, 2005 .

im gonna blog now seeing that i have FINALLY found time to sit down and stone for a while. yay. haha. (: its been a long time since ive got time to stone. yipee. GARY'S COMING BACK THIS FRIDAY!!! (: my husband! i wanna marry him! if i do, ill be motivated for the rest of my life, and ill definately do my homework and study 7-10 hours a day! yay! sadly... he's attached already. shucks. haha. and btw. this is to gwen.
[gwen: IM NOT ANGRY WITH YOU!!! haha. PINGU DOESNT GET ANGRY WITH PEOPLE! (: loveya! hotbabe. haha.]

im gonna continue with my 2 paragraphs dedicated to 2 important people in my life again. seeing how fast time flies, i probably wouldnt have time to tell them how much i love them if i procrastinate any further. the two stars today are.... *drumroll*
GRACE and LYNETTE.

grace: hey. (: THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR YOUR PRESENTS! (: haha. i find them highly comical and humourous. tiring too. i had to carry the pillow home, and seriously, it acts as a hand muscle trainer. thanks for it though! its really sweet of you. lala. you have became my conscience for the past 4 years. especially regarding issues of the heart. haha. (: you keep me in check, making sure that im not losing faith in God, and letting me know whenever i was. thank you so much for being there to listen to me whine, and wail and sob madly. even though i know that when i sob, you cant hear what im saying. thank you for being there when ember died. and when i needed help in my religious and spirtual journey. i love you so much, words cant express how much i appreciate your presence in my life! (: love you!

lynette: haro! (: i know that we have quarrelled umpteen times, and have also recounciled so many times as well. you have been there when i was really down, and i thank you for that. even though we arent really as close as we were in sec 1 and 2, i truly miss the times when we could talk about anything under the sun! thank you for bringing me to church. even though im not part of cosbt anymore, it was you who regained my faith and allowed me to recognise what i really wanted to be when i grew up. its your courage and bravery in handling situations and crisis that really taught me alot of lessons, and i really admire you for all these desirable qualities of yours. yup. and even though i seem as though i dont appreciate you, i really do. and without you around, i wouldnt be who i am today. so thank you so much! -smiles-

yupp. and those are for the 2 stars of the day! yipee.
had bio mock today. after that, went out to eat with jeslin and zhixin.
was feeling happy though i was tired. cos its been really really long since we've went for lunch like that.
and i miss those times. (: yay.
feeling weird now. both guilty and delirious with happiness.
so what if its short? ill treasure every moment of it all the same.
maybe after this, ill learn to get over everything and move on with my life.
maybe. maybe not.

愛してる.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 6:19 PM
------ Monday, August 22, 2005 .

im choking with overwhelming emotions. after hearing what ms ting said during s.s, it really gripped me. in a couple of weeks time, im gonna have to say farewell to those people who mean the world to me. i would have to seperate with people who seem to have became part of my life. all those memories that i have, all those humourous and comical times, when are we going to experience it again? i miss times before the gloom of examinations started to shadow us. i miss the times when we didnt have to care if the chinese O levels were 3days later, and when we can walk around town aimlessly, doing nothing for 4 hours straight. after reading lydia and zhixin's blog, i too realised how much i have taken for granted. maybe this is the wake up call that i have been waiting and anticipating. lately, my posts have gotten quite depressing, but i cant help it. everywhere around me, people are realising their folly, the number of people they failed to appreciate. it has got me thinking. so... i have decided to dedicate paragraphs to my loved ones as well. just like how lydia has. which i feel, is real commendable.

lydia: i just wanna say how much i admire you for your courage! (: i think you are really really brave. throughout these 4 years, you have always brighten my day with your jokes and comical remarks. and even though i get cranky sometimes, you never fail to accept me for who i am and stuck by me all these while. sometimes, it may seem as though we have drifted apart, but hey. i still love you, so so so much. thank you for being around, for being there for me to cry on. thank you for listening to my rubbish and thank you for being there when my auntie passed on. THANK YOU! (:

zhixin: like what lydia said, i also thought you were interfering. sometimes, i really couldnt stand how you became my 'second mum'. but you know what. i love you for being that person who always gives me reality checks, constant reminders to do certain things, and i love you for being that person who cleared my room up for me. (: thank you for always giving me advices that noone else would ever give me, and thank you for standing by me, even though i was really irritating in sec2. thank you for making my birthdays unforgettable with your sweet preparations. i love you! (:

and thats all for today. (: ill continue again in the next post.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 7:28 PM
------ Saturday, August 20, 2005 .

THIS IS TO EVERYONE OUT THERE WHOS READING MY BLOG NOW.
BUY THE STRAITS TIMES TODAY. SATURDAY AUGUST 20 PAPER.

after reading the article, i truly realised what my true ambition is.
its not to be a pilot and to look at the world in a different perspective.
its not to fly high in the sky and glide around the clouds.
its not to stand in the front of a crowd of students teaching philosophy and life.
its to help those people who are starving even in such advanced times.

as i speak, people are dying of starvation and malnutrition.
in Africa, people are questioning the Lord's existence,
and if He made everybody equal.
if He did, why are we living in the midst of luxury,
having bountiful supply of food every single day of our lives,
when those citizens of Africa have to starve and go to bed hungry?
why do we have food in abundant amounts when they have to search for their own food?
why are they dying of malnutrition when we are dying of anorexia and bulimia?
how can our lifes be absolute parallels and they never seem to meet?
we are all children of God, but yet we live so different lives.

God,
whatever i have prayed to you before were selfish and self-centred.
my grades, my life. all those dont matter anymore.
God, i pray that tonight, people in Africa dont go to sleep feeling hungry.
Father, i pray that the war there would stop, governments would start doing more.
i pray that food would rain down on them, just like how Your grace rains down on us.
Father, i pray that your blessings would flow upon them like a mighty stream.
Amen.

`jiaqi.

Good Charlotte.
"We Believe"

There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night

Downtown
Another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There's no regard for life
How do they sleep at night
How can we make things right?
Just wanna make this right

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
(So let it be)
There's a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

So this world
Is too much
For you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I'll be everything you need
In every way

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)

aerin stoning again at 10:17 AM
------ Friday, August 19, 2005 .

SPECIAL THANKS TO THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE:
ZHIXIN, JESLIN, CYNTHIA, MELISSA, KAVINA AND JERILYN
FOR CELEBRATING MY BDAY WITH ME. LOVE YOU ALL! (:

LYDIA, SUEANN, XIAOJIE, KAIXIANG GORGOR, KAIQIN AND THE PEOPLE
MENTIONED ABOVE FOR THE WONDERFUL PRESENTS. (: I LOVE THEM
AND I LOVE YOU ALL TOO!

XINLING, YUKEFONG AND LYNETTE FOR THE CAKE AND KINDER SURPRISE. (:
I LOVE IT! (: YAY! AND I LOVE YOU ALL TOO!

MELISSA, LYDIA, MATE, JERILYN, CHERLYNN, ROSE, XINLING, ZHIXIN, CYNTHIA, JESLIN&KAVINA,
YANQIN, GRACE, ALEX FOR THE BDAY SMSES. IT WAS SWEET BEYOND SWEET.
THANK YOU!!!

GWEN FOR YOUR BDAY CARD! (: IT WAS SUPER NICE!

CHERLYNN, CHIHUI, SHERILYN, GWEN, XINLING, ALEE, LIYUAN, SOPHIA, WANTENG,
YUTING, CHARMAINE, NATANIA, DAWN[CHOO], DAWN[CHIA], AMIRA, KIKU, PAULA, JAYASHRI, LAURA, YUXIU, YIYUAN, ZURAIDAH AND ANYONE
WHO HAD HUGGED ME OR WISHED ME HAPPY BDAY TODAY. (: THANK YOU!!

AND FINALLY, TO MY LOVELY BROTHER, WHO CALLED FROM TEKONG TO WISH ME HAPPY BDAY!

thank you for your time, effort and love. (:
i truly appreciate it.
walking around town aimlessly was fun.
being surprised by you all was pleasant and sweet.
i was so touched, i wanted to cry.
thank you for all your presents.
it was sweet beyond sweet.
all i wish for is that we stay like this forever and ever.
thank you!

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 10:36 PM
------ Thursday, August 18, 2005 .

to XXX:
its been a long time since somebody has told me that it was alright. that i could be who i am within, that i didnt have to pretend anymore. that i dont have to care about what others said. thanks.

my dad got me a really pretty wallet! aww shucks. i love it like mad!!! -huggs- yipee! (:
english oral tomorrow. im scared.
but its okay. cos ive got everyone around me.
and with their support, i know ill do my best. (:
its cos of everyone of you, who made me who i am today. and i love you all for it.
merci.
jet'aime.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 7:59 PM
------ Wednesday, August 17, 2005 .

aloof.
nonchalant.
indifferent.
distant.
silent.
stoical.
apathetic.
blasé.
imperturbable.
phlegmatic.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:43 PM
------ Tuesday, August 16, 2005 .

the course really works. after the course, i have become more goal orientated. (: yipee. whatever things are more trouble than good should be forgotten and ignored. yupp. everything's settled. and im more than glad that it is. we're still friends. so thats it. and im glad its like that. ill shut my eyes, ears and everything else. ill take control of my frustrations and never let it take over me. ill do my best, whatever it takes.
gwen: thank you!!! (: for making me laugh. love you!

aerin stoning again at 7:33 PM
------ Sunday, August 14, 2005 .

YIPEE!!! I LOVE GARY!!! IM GONNA START A GARY FAN CLUB!!! WHEE!! hahaha. i love gary. he's nice. funny. cute. and absolutely retarded. just like me. haha. who wouldnt love a retard once in a while. the 3day course is over. im upset. haha. had so much fun there. and i missed lessons. can i hear a whoop whoop for that? (: i love my dad. my sadistic dad who read my letter before the closing ceremon and made me look like a moron when i ran up to him and gave him the letter. my god. and he was like signalling to me to cut my speech short when i was on stage. sighhs. i love the course. cynthia was really funny. she kept making me laugh with her retarded crackle. just like melissa, who just didnt cry when everybody else did. haha. she's retarded!!! well. at least she didnt cry. or else i wouldnt have tissue and a shoulder to cry on. -sniffles- so sweet! hahaha. and i just found out something. my cousin has turned protestant. haha. under the eyes of God, jews, gentiles, protestant, catholics, we are all equal. we are all the same. and im gonna be a pilot someday. or some captain who stands in front of the crowd and say "i cannot promise you that i can bring you all home alive, but i can promise you that i will be the first to enter the field, and the last to leave." SO COOL!!! (: if i wanna die, i wanna die honourably, protecting the lives of my loved ones. yupp. i love adam khoo! yipee! haha.and i dont miss lessons. AT ALL. i rather have the course all over again. then maybe i could have stopped myself from saying things i didnt wanna say. like. "duhh!" haha. i love gary. and amin. (:

"You're Beautiful."

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

`jiaqi.
~~ive fallen for you, my sweet embrace.~~

aerin stoning again at 8:56 PM
------ Sunday, August 07, 2005 .

in reference to what zhixin and lydia has said today... THIS SHALL BE THE LAST POST!!! haha. and then ill go on hiatus unless i have something SUPER de DUPER important to blog about. like.. lydia's birthday!!! yay!! -throws confetti- zhixin and lydia have been nice company today. (: thanks for everything! met up with them at cityhall. went to the national library to drop zhixin's books. TOOK NEOPRINTS!!! WHEE!!! and btw. they look NICE. haha. then we went to suntec to find shorts. couldnt find a nice one. so we went to citylink to look look and hunt hunt. and we did!! haha. at 37 degrees. hmm. so i wouldnt have to wear class tee and school skirt tomorrow. muahahahhahaha. (: after that, we went homey. cos zhixin had to be home by 6. national day is coming! sighhs. my dad has given in to national propaganda and has already hung up the national flag. it doesnt really add to the decor HOR. oh. and im kinda pissed. the evil monkey who took my wallet is giving me a hard time now!!! EVERY WALLET I SEE SEEMS TO HAVE A FLAW!!! ): i miss my PERFECT wallet. the one with ALL my stuff in it. sheesh. EVIL MONKEY. i need to change the fengshui of my room. i have been super unlucky this whole week. with the weirdest rubbish and nonsense happening to me. arghhh. nevermind. i shall be optimistic! (: GOD IS WITH ME!!!

livin'thegospelwayoflife.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 6:24 PM
------ Saturday, August 06, 2005 .

couldnt really sleep well last night cos i did the stupidest thing of the century yesterday. arghh. shant comment on it any further. i bet if jeslin heard about what i did, she would be laughing all the way till ammargedon. which in any case, i bet she already knows what happened. seeing how resourceful she is. come on lah! even jerilyn knows.... ARGHH. MALU-ATED. nevermind. at least it was an honest comment. and i swear............ IM NEVER GONNA WATCH INUYASHA AND SMS PEOPLE AT THE SAME TIME!!! NOT EVEN BETWEEN ADVERTISEMENTS!!! it was.. a nightmare. shucks. she must think im some psycho. nevermindd. shall NOT brood over it anymore. take everything easy.... yupyup. HOW BLUR CAN I GET!!?? arghh. nevermind. jiaqi. shut up about this. yes. you have been ranting on and on about this issue since yesterday. so stop it.
went to make my new ic and ezlink. woke up at 7.30. i always knew my dad was insane. arghh. friggin tired now. anyway. got interviewed by some immigration officer... had to write one paragraph on how i lost my bloody wallet. sheesh. almost died. i look HORRENDOUS in my new pictures. arghh. like ive turned ugly. no. correction. ive always been ugly. so no change. hmm. i shall be optimistic. no change is good. just like how no news is good news. met zhixin at her house. went off to ps. with her. was making some super stupid comment. FINALLY saw cynthia and jerilyn. EHEM. (winks at cynthia.) lydie came after that. (: ate at fish.n.CO. YAY. lalala. its one day before lydie's BDAY!!! YAY!!! grace was LATE. jan was being really really really really comical. haha. and overly sensitive. though i was touched. cos i was just stoning away the whole day and she told me to cheer up. how sweet. (: thank you! haha. went to church. met jerilyn. and she consoled me too. even though i wasnt THAT sad to begin with. listened to mass. met my family. ate at fosters. too bad. cos i didnt have an appetite. cos of ulcers, a sorethroat and... some other stuff. which i CANT stop thinking about. arghh. i feel USElESS. nevermind. my brother STINKS. he havent bathe for 7days. like.... CAN THE ARMY BE MORE..HYGIENIC!? sheesh. im gonna be half dead soon. havent studied today. crap. tuition at 9 tomorrow.

lydie: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
EVERYBODY LOVES YOU!!!
EVEN THE MONKEYS AT THE ZOO!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

SPECIAL THANKS TO: ZHIXIN, CYNTHIA, JAN, JERILYN, LYDIE.

livin'thegospelwayoflife.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 11:48 PM
------ Thursday, August 04, 2005 .

and i forgot to blog this down.
BOYCOT ALL SHARKFIN PRODUCTS!!!
if anyone out there is SUPER ignorant, let auntie jiaqi tell you how shark fin is obtained.
those friggin' idiots of fishermen go catch those poor poor sharks,
slice off their fins,
and throw them back into the sea!!! thats not enough.
go hang yourself if you think that the fins would grow back.
thinking that is equivalent to thinking that your arm will grow back if somebody would to slice it off.
its brainless and illogical. because they WOULDNT grow back.
HENCEFORTH. STOP EATING SHARKS FIN.
BOYCOT SHARKS FIN.
LET THE SHARKS LIVE!!!

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:11 PM
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omgoshh. im going retro. just like groovy melissa. haha. listening to beegees now. goodness. i havent listened to them in like. dunno how many years already. barry just said that he'll bring us back all the way to 30 years back. to MASSACHUSETTS. its so sad you know... that maurice died. now beegees is no more. hmm. time FLIES.... just like how me and zhixin saw rene wu in town today. and it stuck me that we've not seen her in...2 years? its been 2 years! wow. it was just yesterday that we started our first day of school in sec 1. haha. its been 4 years! omgoshh. im 16 this year alreadyy!! sighhs. i sound like some demented jackass. haha. nevermindd. studied in g2 AGAIN. with sue, jeslin and zhixin. wanteng kept bringing back tadpoles!!! haha. jeslin even created a house? for the tadpoles. shucks. haha. crazy people. melissa kept coming back to take stuff. first, it was her geog book. then when she went ALL the way to the bus stop, she came back. for her wallet. how kuku can she get?! haha. my brother's complaining that ever since he went to tekong for his long term holiday(army), every thing that he owns has became MY stuff. haha. well. if you're ever gonna read this...
TOO BAD!!! YOU'VE BEEN SO FREAKIN MEAN TO ME ALL THE TIME ANYWAY!! HOPE YOU HAVE FUN IN FIELD CAMP!!

"Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Matthew 11:28-30

livin'thegospelwayoflife.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 9:01 PM
------ Tuesday, August 02, 2005 .

sighhs. SUPER unlucky day. and i refuse to comment on what happened already.
hmm. i lost that thing she gave me. ):
mrs tang is a cow. who looks down on me. she was so mean to me today lah!
just cos i failed the idiotic test. then she was like. "jiaqi. im sure you have alot of corrections to do right?" whats with her annoying manner LAH. eeyurhh. i was so blasted annoyed cos i was clearing up my desk. sighhs. been staying in school for a long long time nowadays. which is good. cos it ensures that i STUDY. yay. (: with people like zx, jeslin and sueann, you will be TOO motivated to study. haha. they are.... scary. haha.
jeslin has a bruise on her cheek!!! haha. she ALWAYS gets injured. kuku woman.
im still not talking to my mother. which is good. cos now. i dont go provoking her. she provokes me and i dont retaliate. YAY. so my daddy sides me. hahaha. whee. national day is coming. lydia's bday is coming.
im broke!!! and ive put on weight. AGAIN. dammit. im going on a STRICT diet now. since the exercise component is clearly missing for apparent reasons.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 11:04 PM
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aerin stoning again at 11:04 PM
------ Monday, August 01, 2005 .

Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

hmm. things are getting better at home already. or at least i hope............. i guess i can only hope huh.
life's been a real mess lately, with trash happening at home, and weird stuff with my friends.
and rubbish in my religious journey. just pray i can pull through all these crap and start anew!
after all. chihui said im tough. (: -smiles-
chihui: was feeling really really really really down that day. and what you said really perked me up. so THANK YOU!!!
failed my emaths test. and im in remedial AGAIN. even when i slogged like mad just to scrape a pass and get out of damned remedial,
im in it once again. wow. life really makes fun of me huh.
now. i can only wonder whats gonna happen tomorrow. the day after. there's no longer a certainty about the future. i feel as though i just stepped into fog. and all i can hear are mutters and buzzing around. i think ive gone mad.

`jiaqi.

aerin stoning again at 7:07 PM
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