i remember how you beckoned me to you.
how you looked when you said you'll always be here.
the way your eyes shined when you saw me smile.
where are you now?
`jiaqi.
FEAST DAY
it was so packed and crowded that i felt like i was being squashed perpetually.
met up with annie to walk around with.
having her company feels great.
cos she's so nice to me and all.
THANK YOU ANNIE.
nigel left the earliest to attend his grandpa's birthday.
shawn was nice enough to spare me 5 bucks from his 100 bucks worth of coupons.
ian was just being his normal small boy self.
then it started to rain.
our spirits were dampened.
climbing up the stupid stairs with a hundred others going down
was terrorising. i felt like i was going against some humongous current lah!
luckily jerilyn was around to let me hold on to her.
i miss zhixin! :D
im falling out of style with the current way things are;
the things that make conforming hard.
to Jesus :
I ASKED FOR MY LIFE TO BE RESTORED.
NOT FOR IT TO CRUMPLE WITHIN MY HANDS.
JUST LIKE A SANDCASTLE THAT IM HOPELESSLY TRYING TO SALVAGE.
WOULD YOU STOP THE WAVES FROM CONSUMING IT WHOLE.
JUST FOR ME JESUS.
JUST FOR ME.
`jiaqi.
today has been a shitty day.
ptm was sucky.
im moving to the front anthea!
mr lim insists.
and so does my daddy. :(
went back to crescent to watch annie and mao collect prize.
it was... nice.
im proud of you guys man! ((:
though crescent's different from how it was just last year.
it feels so surreal and strange.
im back. in another school's uniform.
never imagined and thought that i would come back like this.
left for town with ann, cyn and zhixin.
had chicken rice for lunch, before taking neoprints.
then sitting around in subway slacking.
church was terrible.
two devastating news hit me darn hard.
i dont want you to leave.
im regretting every single moment of this.
it was supposed to be kept forever.
if only i knew.
maybe this wouldnt happen.
i just want to see you smile again.
So I'll keep fighting to live
Till theres no reason to fight
And I'll keep trying to see
Until the end is in sight
You know I'm trying to give
So come on
Give me a try
You know I'm dying to live
Until I'm ready to die
`jiaqi.
i cant wait till saturday!
life sucks like smelly bananas.
my hearing's deproving.
i heard mango tea as cookie.
I MISS THE TCALS.
`jiaqi.
school's been alright.
i HAVE been able to stay out of trouble since last week.
so thats a good thing.
church on saturday was havoc and total chaos.
annie didnt go, so i was stuck with a room full of guys.
went out with jer, dom and chris after that.
to wait to bowl. and in the end, we didnt.
queue too long.
jer sent me home after that. sweet.
sunday was tuition day.
kaiqin was.... a nice lil boy that day.
so not much trouble too.
did my essays and written report.
im a good kid again!
though i missed morning run.
im really sorry claire!
a knight of my fantasies.
i'll never have you.
`jiaqi.
woohoo.
no detention today.
no trouble at all today.
whee. im on a roll dude.
tomorrow will mark the first lesson that im going to tutor. :D
just watched singapore idol.
i think jonathan leong is the hottest dude ive ever seen!
and his voice is some fantastic shit man.
like i was telling della,
when i hear him sing, i get orgasms. HAHA.
`jiaqi.
got caught for the two stupidest things in the world today.
i think im gonna listen to della dear and follow the damned rules.
drawstring and tie.
went back and forth from michael tan's office to the other tan guy's office.
honestly, it was a total waste of my time.
nevermind.
whats worse, i got anthea into trouble.
she's such an innocent victim.
if she didnt run down to pass me my tie,
she wouldnt have gotten into trouble.
ALL CJC's FAULT.
went for morning run today.
i was horridly late, and i was received by a really tired claire.
SORRY DEAR, i really couldnt wake up so early. :)
chinese oral was screwed up.
i was entertaining yuanzu and jeanette for about... 50mins straight, talking nonstop.
and according to raphael, i broke history's record for speaking the most chinese today,
and forcing others to speak mandarin as well.
the more i tried to have a fluent chinese accent, the more i sounded angmoh.
im gonna pulverise when i get back my chinese oral marks.
attended detention like a guai kid. -looks at anthea. :D
we should STOP getting detention together. it seems almost like we enjoy it. HAHA.
SARAH DE SUZYQ DIDNT COME TO SCHOOL TODAY. :(
`jiaqi.
GRACE'S BAPTISM TODAY!
i was really skeptical about what i'd learn at baptism service at grace's church today.
no offence to grace, its not you and your church.
its protestant churches in general.
i guess its time that i change my idea of protestants and non catholics in general.
after several unmentioned hurtful incidents that happened in my previous church,
i totally lost faith in pastors in general.
always kinda thought that i'd learn nothing from them.
and like what zhixin said, its like discrimmination.
however, that guy who spoke during service today changed my impression alot.
his speech was in a way, very touching.
so it did open up my heart to christians who arent catholic!
and thats a good thing.
so being stereotypical and assuming does make an ass out of you and me.
i do miss hanging out with you guys.
sometimes, jealousy does creep into my heart.
its quite hurting to see picture after picture without me in them.
scars just dont vanish after years.
i belong to God,
and Jesus loves me.
`jiaqi.
YAY.
saturday's training is over.
it was surprising slack today.
i hate running with the ball continuously between the 0 to 75 yard line.
once is enough to kill.
at least we did well during the game.
GOOD GAME GUYS!
yepp. we are improving.
we're gonna own a div next year yes? :D
yesterday, had zhixin's surprise party at annie's house.
it was more than hilarious.
and to think zhixin was angry with me for being so harsh and cold.
HAH. all part of the plan, zhixin!
makes you appreciate our surprise more yes?
went to look for mel after self training with claire, which i stupidly tripped over my own stick.
had free sushi by sneaking into sakae when mel and her friends were having buffet.
darylyn and mel left to leave space for me to eat free sushi.
HAH. ((: but because of my dying hunger, we made mao wait for about an hour before we met.
and i was really apologetic about it.
bought the chocolate cake for ah teo.
went off to annie's house, was terribly squeezed in the car.
annie' was humongously annoyed with me.
and she tried to freak me out when i was in the toilet.
TSKTSK.
took loads of pictures, and made hell alot of noise while eating steamboat.
FORCED zhixin into annie's room, while mao pretended to drop her contacts.
in the meanwhile, cynthia and annie went off to get the cake.
zhixin's million dollar look was hilarious.
bluffed her by telling her that the disgusting FREE bag we got was her present.
hahaha. and she was so disgusted by it. :(
quickly stuffed her shirt into the bag without her noticing and all.
zhixin: im sorry for forgetting and all okay!? i really do hope you like the presents and all.
and yes, im apologetic for not jioing you out, and being cold to you. you know i love youu. ((:
i need to get claire new sport shoes before she slips to her death during training.
`jiaqi.
he is a total bastard.
my day was awfully ruinned.
why is it all bastards and those who are taken?
nevermind.
only jeslin will know what im ranting about.
i am very very peeved.
all the movies ive watched recently are screwed.
superman was a total disappointment because of the slow progress in plot and the story just went out of focus?
and..
pirates of the caribbean.
for those who have not watched it,
i shall not rant about it yet.
just know im depressed and disappointed with it.
i want my man back.
`jiaqi.
just finished training and im MAXED OUT.
my muscles and joints feel like its been smeared with cement.
im dead beat.
training was... surprisingly slack for a coach like manjit.
perhaps its the area of csc. not as huge as delta.
so not much suicides today.
just 8 rounds that became increasingly smaller.
and running with the ball.
and said coach wants us to do that for a month.
according to said coach, its the basic of hockey.
DUDE, YOU'VE BEEN SAYING THAT EVERY TRAINING MAN!!!
nevermind. met claire in town before training.
went to crystal jade... and yes. being the mountain tortoise and absolute loser i am,
ive never been in one. HAH. yes. surprised? dont be.
jazryl came along as well, and we parted after a relatively long session of complaining from both me and claire.
im peeved. but its okay. im nice. :D
met nigel before that to get SHUFFLE! dvds. it was embarrassing.
cause i felt like the youngest there, being the childish and immature me.
got back all my results for almost every subject i take, except for geog.
i failed maths and chem,
subpass for gp,
e for econs
and.... b for chinese.
yes. this is bad.
NEVERMIND. i shall work harder.
was late again yesterday, and so me and anthea were down for detention TOGETHER again.
YAY. at this rate, im going to really enjoy detention. ((:
and i was really touched by those people who bothered to give me a morning call today.
THANK YOU DELLA, JEREMY AND MELISSA FOR CALLING ME SO MANY TIMES THAT I FELT LIKE THROWING THE PHONE OUT OF THE WINDOW. YET, IT WOKE ME UP REALLY WELL. ((:
jerilyn and jeslin are fated to be toilet cleaners together. HAHA. :D
MAOMAO.
ANNIE.
`jiaqi.
went for training today.
nothing happened, and yes, i aint murdered yet.
left for church.
WAS EARLY! ((:
annie was freaked out by my hyperness.
and guitar pegs.
I FORGOT TO TAKE A PICTURE OF HER! :(
weikwang was late, nigel didnt go to church. :(
and here's a picture of david dominic nalpon.
`jiaqi.
nothing much to blog about today.
just that bro.paul rogers is horrid.
he made my day from 7.40 all the way till 1200.
and then he just threw all our hopes away.
1pm dismissal. YEAH RIGHT.
bugger. i hope he didnt kill the h2 history students.
claire's there.
training tomorrow at delta.
i hope ill wake up early enough.
if only i had the same kinda passion claire and all crescent hockers have for hockey.
all these problems would just be a breeze.
im caught in the middle, between aka and chaka.
i hope that the both of them would be fine soon.
the emphasis would be on the word "hope" actually.
misunderstandings arise all the time. i just HOPE that this is one of them.
found a new anime called shuffle!. its been quite interesting.
hope its a nice anime. so i wouldnt waste my time on it if its lousy.
got a new picture today! i thought i'd never get the pictures we took at the chalet.
but hey, at least ive got one.
my head hurts like mad today. somebody's gotta be hitting me with a hammer in my sleep.
church tomorrow. will be seeing annie and gang.
which means byebye CK watch! and hello swatch.
im shagged. i knocked out during the bus trip home from town.
mellie sent me home, and luckily she did, or i would have slept thru 3 rounds arnd singapore.
i hate gp lessons with fernandez. she makes everything so god damn boring.
i love sajc. i love being a saint.
`jiaqi.
had a rough day in school.
raining in the morning.
so we all started off with a dark beginning.
heard some stuff from aka.
i know she aint talking rubbish, so yes.
i believe her.
and its been making my day really bad.
other information has also reached my ears.
i dont give an absolute fuck about what you think. you're just some fucking bystander who is insignificant in my life.
you should fuck off. honestly. cos nobody thinks you're worth knowing anyway. you're not worth my bloody time.
you're so goddamn fake, fucking hypocrite. and keep your fucking mouth shut about my friends.
`jiaqi.
went to national sailing centre today to rot.
i was late for school again.
but this time,i got caught.
and i had to hand in my ezlink card.
that was really unfair!
because i had to pay by cash, and its cos i had to do cip for the whole day.
it really aint fair.
honestly. the teachers in this school have no trust at all.
its just annoying.
almost killed myself at nsc, by the killer waves, killer boats and killer attitudes of young kids.
plain annoying. THOUGH I SAW CLAIRE DANCE RETAREDLY. ((:
that was the highlight of my life.
honestly.
was dismissed relatively early.
met up with ann, mel and mao.
went to macs to slack and munch.
wished that i had complained to mao earlier in the first place.
ann left earlier, and then we left too.
I MISS TCAL SAINTS. ((:
oh. IM TANNED.
stop, tell me where you're going.
maybe the one you love isnt there.
`jiaqi.
back to school it was.
my biological clock was really screwed, so i had barely enough sleep to get thru the day.
i was late in the morning and rushed to the quadrangle.
heard tash reading lines from the Bible, so i thought that prayer had started.
so i did the sign of the cross.
ONLY TO REALISE THAT SECONDS LATER...
this was blasted over the pa system.
"let us pray, in the name of..."
i was so embarrassed, i felt like hiding under my imaginary blanket.
so much for not screwing up.
my hair was in a wreck.
i slept through the entire of maths tutorial.
chatted through 3/4 of econs tutorial.
scribbled on yuanzu and anthea's notes for chem lecture.
and i think thats how i spent my entire day!
with della next to me taking pictures for her collage. hahaha.
and i took these from her blog, chopped it up and WALA.
caught in the act sleeping during maths tutorial!
my wonderful class. ((:
IF ONLY SUSY Q WOULD TAKE PICTURES.
`jiaqi.
NEWEST FINDINGS OF MICHAEL OWEN. :D
`jiaqi.
went out with dearest zhixin today!
she woke me up 10mins after my alarm rang.
watch just my luck today.
wow. the guy is seriously unlucky.
ive never seen anybody THAT suay lah. haha.
who picks up 5 bucks from the bin and realise that its covered in shit.
haha. God must have really been teasing this guy.
ive changed my perception of lindsay lohan after the show.
she was quite pretty BEFORE she slimmed down and turned into a walking zombie.
yes. i think girls like nicole richie and lindsay lohan are ugly.
girls like jennifer aniston, keira knightley who are SLIM and skinny are gorgeous.
angelina jolie is pretty too. SLIM and not SKINNY. there's the difference.
human, and not zombie.
thought my ego dropped by millions after watching sports illustrated models.
alicia is really beautiful. classic beauty. with a gorgeous body!
walked around town after the movie.
zhixin and i were seriously tired after the entire day we spent TOGETHER.
haha. we were shagged. and so we parted.
i felt so bad cos its my fault that she had dinner alone.
zhixin: im sorry!
and i must blog about this cute guy i saw at tanglin mall.
oh my god.
he looks like some brazilian soccer star lah!
he's like a cross between kaka, owen and becks.
wow. that's really gorgeous right.
and the height of deco. PERFECT. :D
and he stared back at me while he left the restaurant!
zhixin says im in self denial. i aint self deluded! LALALA.
cos then you'll see my heart in the saddest state its ever been.
`jiaqi.
spent the night at nigel's house to watch england and brazil.
weikwang and shawn were there too.
annie had to leave church early cos of certain matters.
we went to watch superman returns after church.
stupid show. and i wasted 9.50 on it. -.-
ian and weikwang were both discussing on how superman resembles Jesus.
im currently really upset with both games.
first, owen's out for 5 months.
during england's games, they were playing owen kind of football.
he could have score so many goals if he was there!
then becks went out. and he CRIED. and the stupid cam caught it on tape.
then rooney got a red card for no rhyme or reason at all.
soon after, j.cole went out.
im in honest depression. MICHAEL OWEN, WHERE ARE YOU!?
and then brazil's game was just disappointing.
the only thing that cheered me up a little, is that i saw ronaldinho!
that guy is a legend. who smiles even when the ref stops you for nothing at the 91st minute!
and no, i dont care what others say. ronaldinho is a LEGEND. ((:
just that his magic was a little weak this morning.
im in mourning.
`jiaqi.
dug a little through a couple of my picture folders.
and i found lil' STITCH lookalike.
her first cameo appearance.
woke up feeling as sick as a pig today.
called zhixin.
im going to watch scary movie 4 tomorrow! ((:
i want to get the jimmy eat world cd.
just saw macaulay culkin on tv.
and my dad HAD to say "he's one of the reasons why i wished you were an ugly baby."
-.- he's trying to say i looked damn cute when i was young, like culkin.
and ugly when im older. like culkin.
WHAT THE HELL.
and then i realised.. that this was a persistent pattern in most hollywood young male actors.
another good example.
haley joel osment. everybody seen him in sixth sense, pay it forward.
and look at him now.
im not saying he's ugly now la.
but he looks so much better younger.
his face's like blown out of proportion.
so, the morale of the story is...
HAVE UGLY BABIES.
`jiaqi.